happy butterfly

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Message to Readers

ugdhr ghosts remind me of spectral tbh


January 20, 2021



and i know the world isn't going to end now that you're gone but will i?
i'm still thinking about us, holding onto your every fading feeling
i know, i know. you're moving onto greater things
but i want you to soften my suffering and tell me of each of my imperfections that made you creep away
you've been losing the past and you don't remember how we were so now each time i look into your eyes it aches
i am a ghost, lingering 'round your eyelids
(or atleast i hope i'm that; a ghost)
though i'm the one who's being haunted but i wish it were you

i'm always drenched in insecurities so why am i wondering why you've left
i've said goodbye too many times
always back with fractured butterflies in my stomach
unlistened record will scratch over and over for you but i wish you listened
and love, i know i'm going down with no loving memory but bet i'll be back
do you ever get scared that you'll run out of words of imagery or phrases or metaphors and then get scared that soon you 'll run out of everything?

i wish my muse could read this because i can't confront anyone to save my life


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  • itzjojo

    I wanted to write review but heck, this piece is so beautifully and raw written all I'd have to say in the review is "the audacity you have to rip my heart out and make it so dang poetic and bitter sweet" which in my head translates to "You are a very talented writer and have a unique writing style that I absolutely adore."

    4 months ago
  • AJ - Izzy

    "and love, i know i'm going down with no loving memory but bet i'll be back."
    blajhakjshdlkf my heart, ah, this is gorgeous writing. heart hurts now, in the way the heart resonates with the melancholy truth of words so beautiful. sending loads of love... i am breathtaken. take care, my friend <3 <3

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    re: ahhh thank YOU so much!!! i'm so so so glad you liked it :) xoxo

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    oh my... "fractured butterflies"?!? this. this is amazing. i love all your work but just... yes. and ghosts definitely remind me of spectral, lol.
    love your poetryyyyyy <3 <3 <3 and btw, your footnotes? they resonated somewhere in my heart and i can't seem to breathe anymore... wow.

    4 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Re: I'm sorry. That looks so dry and unfeeling on my screen, but I promise that there's a beating heart behind it.

    4 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Oh bb... *hug* Do you wanna talk? Btw this is achingly gorgeous.

    4 months ago
  • spectral

    i have been summoned hello yes ghosts mmmm yes mm association
    in all honesty though all of your imagery and phrases ring differently (and yet with the same gorgeous sound) each time so i doubt it in your case haha. lovely piece, i hope you find the words for your muse.

    4 months ago