V-Rose

United States

15
Proud Catholic
Writer/Reader
Coffee Addict
(since I could walk)
Rohan's Defender's twin/cousin/sister/cognate

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Why Do I Hide?

January 12, 2021

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I didn't realize you noticed
I thought I was good at hiding it
But when you tried to comfort me about it...
My mind immediately went to:
Hide it better this time

Because that's what I do.

I try to hide my stress because
I don't want to bother you
I try to hide my hurt because
I don't want to bother you
I try to hide everything I don't like because
It bothers me when you see it

Yes, I trust you.
But, like you said, I grew up too fast
And I figured out how to hide things
And now I don't even think about it

But apparently, I wasn't doing a good job.
You said you noticed I was more stressed
But I sounded relaxed, confident, happy
I didn't realize I looked stressed

Have I ever looked differently?

And why does that bother me?
Why can't I admit to being stressed,
upset,
angry?
Why do I try to hide it even when you say it's okay?
Even when I know I trust you?

Why does it make me more ashamed
when people tell me it's okay to cry?
Why do I cover things up with a smile
and do my best to be the sidewalk-girl,
walking behind everyone else?

Why do I hide?
This is... me... talking to my cousin.
  She is the closest thing I have to an older sister. I didn't realize she (and others, too) saw when I was stressed. But I don't know what I'd do without her.

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2 Comments
  • Anne Blackwood

    I'm exhausted and incoherent so can I just second what Eden said? I promise I mean it.


    7 days ago
  • Rohan’s Defender

    This is so great. I think a lot of people can relate to this too. Is okay to feel stressed and upset sometimes, but different people process it differently. And that’s good.
    It’s so great that you have an older cousin you can count on. She’s lucky to have an awesome cousin like you too. I bet she’s super proud and thankful for her amazingly talented cousin V! I know I am! :)


    7 days ago