Yellow Sweater

United States

Zinnia | she/her | bi | agnostic | 18 | WA

University of Washington, Honors 2025

2021-2022 Seattle Youth Poet Laureate

I don't necessarily agree with my own assertions

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I was just published by Rattle Magazine! If you would like to read it look up their website. It's called Frozen America!

I like spaceships, temples, and tea.

Some of my favorite writers: Federico Garcia Lorca, Teju Cole, Ocean Vuong, Annie Dillard, Italo Calvino, Arundhati Roy, Michael Ondaatje, Becky Chambers, Pablo Neruda... The list goes on.

I am on here way too much.

My book is out next June! It feels wonderful to be able to say that with such certainty!

There are so many excellent writers on this site, but if you are new and looking for a place to start, check out: Paisley Blue, aosora, wishtree, aismic, Starlitskies, R.j.Elsewhere, amaryllis, .. ugh there are so many more....

Sunflower Seeds (off of R.j.Elsewhere's prompt, warning: explicit imagery)

January 3, 2021

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To write is to consume the sun. To stretch our fragile bodies until we hear the glass shatter. To exploit our belly-buttons for the puncture wounds they are.  

I cry like a baby. 

Sun, 
I desire you.  

Mediterranean headaches, 
hands pressed against my eyes. 
You turn blue into a turgid God, 
Sea sick on insubstantial light 
I undulate, puking words into the turquoise sea. 

Sun, 
I would make you solid.

I want to eat fistfuls of dirt and cherry blossoms, 
to surrender as you inflate my insides with your vastness. 
Full and alive, aching with a prayer of terrible gluttony,
the sun and I would skewer ourselves on kebab sticks still dripping with fat.  

But I settle for sunflower seeds. Bitter and salty like sweat, I place them on my tongue and spit, staining the page with a half chewed fetus.  

 

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6 Comments
  • Cosmogyral

    re: are, are you...carding through all my one-liners??? XD


    about 1 year ago
  • Starlitskies

    And also, Happy New Year! XD


    about 1 year ago
  • Starlitskies

    Woah! Just whoa! Couldn't agree more with R.j.Elsewhere! This is beautiful. I love how sensual and candid the whole piece is.
    "Mediterranean headaches" This is unusually engaging. Amazing choice of words. Also, the imagery of kebab sticks made your piece come off unrestrained and rather bewitching!
    Re: Thank you so much for your thoughtful comment! <3


    about 1 year ago
  • Harzi

    Re: thank you, thank you <3


    about 1 year ago
  • Harzi

    Ah, the way you write is so soul-piercing! And, undeniably beautiful, too! "I want to eat fistfuls of dirt and cherry blossoms,
    to surrender as you inflate my insides with your vastness." This line got me at some way I don't understand, but feeling like I still do nonetheless. Also, love your choice of words here in this one!


    about 1 year ago
  • R.j.Elsewhere

    What a beautiful and soulful piece!!! It’s raw like an open cut, but dressed so heavenly you almost forget the pain. Oh, and this line “But I settle for sunflower seeds.”. I absolutely died. That one line completely tied the whole piece together and set my world alight. To read this is to feel the longing and hunger writers feel every time we pick up a pen or open our computers...it’s sickly fascinating. A truly masterful piece. Thank you!!!


    about 1 year ago