Paisley Blue

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they/them | 6.2.2020
genderfluid | christian

the sound of rain

Message to Readers

And how rare and beautiful it truly is that we exist

(Saturn, Sleeping At Last)

on the realization of life

December 15, 2020



“This is why it hurts the way it hurts.
You have too many words in your head. There are too many ways to describe the way you feel. You will never have the luxury of a dull ache.
You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much”
-Iain S. Thomas

there's an ache in my chest, you put it there;
your words leak out of my fingertips, trailing ink across my skin,
love letters written in code. i can't seem to feel and yet i feel
all too much; i feel the life
pulsing underneath us, throughout the earth, i feel the motion of the planets and the tides, i feel leaves and i feel snow, i feel the pain of hearts breaking and i feel the pain of hearts mending. in my veins flows
a melody that everyone seems to sing. i'm still afraid
of forgetting the words but i'm learning, 
i'm learning
i don't like to hate, but loving isn't much easier, when
the sun is too bright and i don't see your face but i dream.
i dream, you dream, our dream is reality and i can't step away from this moving picture
that is my imagination, see, this is what being a poet means--
overflowing with emotions that refuse to be spoken, words
that try to mean what you want them to mean, words that
try to ease the vibrations filling the atoms inside of me--
of course there's no word to capture the intimacy of the universe, but
there is poetry.
epigraph is by Iain S. Thomas, one of my favorite poets. please check him out :)
hope you all liked this.


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  • crystalline•galaxies

    woah, this is downright gorgeous.

    5 months ago
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    5 months ago
  • beth r.

    the format is lovely, and the last line is so pretty!
    re: aw thank you! your comment is literally so sweet and poetic! it's really awesome that your family tries out different traditions :) ly too!

    5 months ago
  • Abrianna

    Re: Thanks, it's so sweet of you to check in. I've not had much motivation lately to write, but, I'll get over it.
    P.S. This is piece is great, The emotions you can catch and put in words are incredible, keep it up!! <33

    5 months ago
  • Caleb Urlacher

    awesome! you got any books out?

    5 months ago
  • mirkat

    woah. woah. first, the epigraph is just... my life? this line: "You must suffer through the intricacy of feeling too much" ahhhhh i will totally read more of his poems! now for your poem: woah, woah. i-- this is one of my favorites of yours... "of course there's no word to capture the intimacy of the universe, but there is poetry." haha, so true! i love this beyond belief... seriously, you are talented. and this is me... i can only turn out good poetry when i really try and focus and when i have it in me, ya' know? i can't make up the stuff i write. i gotta have poetry as a way to relieve myself. okay. well i'ma read this 10 million more times, alright? btw, lovely message board! take care!

    5 months ago
  • Aconite

    this is sooo gorgeous! I will definitely check out Iain S. Thomas

    5 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Re: Thanks for the suggestion!

    5 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Okay yes I feel this to a magnitude I just can't explain in a comment.

    5 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    re: hhhhhhhh i wrote that in 5 minutes -

    5 months ago
  • sunny.v

    "i don't like to hate, but loving isn't much easier" !!!! this this this! this line's meaning is just so. gut punch. and the entire piece's like, vibe, of just existential awe and life and everything. it's stunning.

    5 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    re: HHHHHHH NO
    there's like 10 other different songs in the works fffffff

    5 months ago
  • dee’s abditory

    you need to stop being better than me rn its annoying
    jk love you darling <3

    5 months ago
  • rwong

    ok i'm literally blown away by all your pieces ahhhh this is so amazing and beautiful and the emotion just packed in this, and everything ajlskdflk;sajf;lasdkfj <3 <3 <3

    5 months ago