Paisley Blue

United States

he/they | 6.2.2020
genderfluid | christian

the sound of rain

Message from Writer

thank you to Wisp, rwong, Busssy.Bee, and mirkat for all of the love and support :)


"My work is loving the world.
Here the sunflowers, there the hummingbird--
equal seekers of sweetness.
Here the quickening yeast; there the blue plums.
Here the clam deep in the speckled sand."
- "Messenger", Mary Oliver

"And I will show that nothing can happen more beautiful than death,
And I will thread a thread through my poems that time and event are compact,
And that all the things of the universe are perfect miracles, each as profound as any."
-Song of Myself (Leaves of Grass, Walt Whitman)

when i dream

December 12, 2020

i don't see your face when i dream of you--
rather, you appear next to me and i follow the curve of your body
up to where your face should be--but i can't imagine your beauty
and so you stay unnamed. yet when i linger with you, in the depths of my mind,
i feel so at home. you know me, somehow. i know you. you point to the stars;
see, you belong there, among the galaxies, and i admire the way you shine.
you feel like heaven against the soft earth, the smell of petrichor lingering
between our clasped hands.
and you don't say much--you don't have to. but when you speak i taste
the sunrise; your laugh feels like the way light hits the horizon before it touches us.

but reality has a different plan. you're silhouetted against the night; 
and for the first time i can't tell if you've turned your back to me
blood between my lips [how does life still exist?]
the sweet tang of love flowing under my tongue and
i feel you here, but you're gone-
you're gone.
breath flows into my lungs and flowers in the corners
filling me with stilted peace. you live inside of me.

i don't see your face when i dream of you, but
i know that you love me anyways.
lost love is such a beautiful muse. not that i have experience with it... 
hope you liked this :)


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  • Aconite

    so romantic. i love it!

    5 months ago
  • Stone of Jade

    there are no words to describe how beautiful this is. your talent constantly leaves me in awe. you are an inspiration <33

    5 months ago
  • crystalline•galaxies

    this is so bittersweet and intimate and warm... truly a work of art.

    5 months ago
  • sunny.v

    “but when you speak i taste / the sunrise” and “ i don't see your face when i dream of you, but / i know that you love me anyways.” are my favorite lines! there’s something so gentle and absolutely bittersweet about this piece. it’s like—the softest, most gentle ache, and i adore it sm!! <33

    5 months ago
  • sci-Fi

    wow... this is so poetic and deep and omg i just read it three times.... wow.

    5 months ago
  • FantasyOtter12

    Re: Thanks, hope you're doing amazing as well <33

    5 months ago
  • mirkat

    um, how did i miss this!? i love the flow and the language and the concept of this... i love all of it! so many people said "wow" and i don't want to be another wower but seriously, wow! the first stanza is my favorite...
    re: okay, we can't just keep going back and forth and saying how much we appreciate and love and are inspired by each other... but really sometimes i'm so wowed by your talent and imagery that i think i do not deserve your praise... thank you so much, ella. you've given me confidence. now don't thank me for this! XD

    5 months ago
  • kai blue

    w o w.... you've gotten a lot of comments that just say "wow" and i feel i must add to that because it's just so fitting. wow.

    re: thank you so much for the support <33 also i noticed you changed your pronouns in your bio, i'm happy for you!

    5 months ago
  • lochnessie

    also, nice bio! i'm glad you've found terminology that fits you dear <33

    5 months ago
  • rwong

    honestly just look at lochnessie's comments XD that's literally how i feel

    5 months ago
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  • ghostyboi

    Re: Thanks and I love you too <3 I'm so glad I could help you explore your identity

    5 months ago