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Message from Writer

thanks to paisley blue, rwong, wisp, and crystalline galaxies for all the love and support.

scribble chums with remi'sgotinkstains, useless :), and Starlitskies.

i think i'm a broken umbrella?

take a deep breath and
let tomorrow dissolve
into today;

miriam v. mirkat

December 3, 2020



out there i'm miriam--
outgoing and outspoken
bursting into fits of giggles for absolutely no reason
(see "awkward")

but here i'm mirkat--
miriam's super cool (but still awkward) alter ego
(still) bursting into fits of giggles for absolutely no reason

and the problem is i don't know which one
is really me
maybe i'm both or maybe i'm neither

they all say that i don't need to know,
that it takes time
to find yourself

but a piece of me will be missing until
i know for sure
until the puzzle pieces are snapped into place

so i'll just keep on being
miriam out there and mirkat
in here
and i hope it will all make sense someday

just another pit stop on the perpetual journey of finding myself

the fact that they say we don't need to know makes you want (need) to know more thought, right? 



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  • December 3, 2020 - 9:25am (Now Viewing)

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  • A blind (young) man

    That's a profound thought. Can you be both?

    5 months ago
  • anemoia (#words)

    you put it so well.
    i downloaded the latest issue of ice lolly review! i saw your piece and paisley's! <3

    5 months ago
  • xx carolina xx

    very relatable -

    5 months ago
  • Rose A(hiatus)

    so relatable. I don't think I could say it as well as you did, but I get it. Good luck with all that self-discovery jazz. Also, I think your name(the real one and your username) are pretty cool.

    5 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    OH MY GOODNESS this is me. I honestly can't tell anymore if I'm more "me" irl or on here--but they're different. I really do get this. I think we all do, in a way. And those footnotes... absolutely. Hope you find yourself <333 always around if you want to chat! <3

    5 months ago
  • doodleninja

    re: ahhh so glad you enjoyed the episode! thank you so much! <3

    5 months ago
  • doodleninja

    really nice, heartfelt piece here! And honestly, what teenager doesn't go through an identity crisis at some point? XD

    5 months ago
  • bookmagic

    I think we all have, like, seven alter egos that all somehow boil down to one piece of the human puzzle.

    5 months ago
  • ???

    Oh my god. I feel the exact same way at times. You totally described how I feel.
    "and the problem is i don't know which one
    is really me
    maybe i'm both or maybe i'm neither"
    this is what i keep thinking everydayyy. thank you for writing this!

    5 months ago
  • psithurism

    Ahh self discovery. Why does it have to be so difficult and confusing? I wish you luck!

    5 months ago
  • beth r.

    first off, i have like 10 friends named miriam and i freakin love that name. it's gorgeous!
    also, relatable!
    re: ya we're all abunch of weirdos and its great

    5 months ago
  • SunV

    This is so relatable. I'm so stuck between Saanvi and SunV. I think we're all a little bit of both.

    5 months ago
  • sci-Fi

    I get this!!! Everyone on here says like "you're so this" or "you're so that", and I'm just shocked by the fact that it's not like my irl personality at all. Like u said "maybe i'm both or maybe i'm neither"

    5 months ago