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Message to Readers

the play of words on no body and nobody is intentional :( and this was so. specific? and personal? it probably doesn't make sense! and ew thanksgiving break is over

have no body

November 30, 2020

FREE WRITING

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“and i don’t want your pity, i just / want somebody near me,
guess i’m a coward, i just /

wanna feel alright.” --nobody by mitski

today, i do not know who i am. today, i cannot
tell heartbreak from my own left hand. i have no
body     to tell me if i’m doing this right, cutting you
out ever so gently and not being surprised
that you don’t notice. makes me wonder if i was ever home
at all. your words just made things worse, but it’s the thought
that counts, right? maybe it’s a good thing i have no
body     to ask if it hurts.

i didn’t want to make a big show out of things, i just
wanted someone to care. hold me by the face and tell me
i was real. push a little bit beyond the cold formality of
how you usually freaking tell an unstable person what you
think they need to hear, because i thought we were more
intertwined than that. but in the end, who do we have?
maybe i’ll stitch us back.

but back then, you made me feel like i had no
body.     nobody at all.
using mitski's nobody as an epigraph feels like the most correct thing i've ever done lol what a mood honestly

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9 Comments
  • Paisley Blue

    okay again how did i miss this???!? well this is divine. and so raw and emotional... wow. i wish i had better words to describe how much i love this!! i just adore your writing! the epigraph really is perfect, wow. the play on words you mentioned is really cool as well--it fits the poem so perfectly and just... wow. i can't even express how much i admire your talent! :)
    how are you doing, dear? it's been a while since I've heard from you. Hope you're well! <333 best wishes!


    5 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: thankyouthankyouthankyouthankyou when i stop being a fangirl i'll sound less squeaky


    5 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    ahhh i missed reading your writing so much


    5 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    wow this is so unbelievably beautiful! i still am amazed with your work sunny,its so beautiful and raw and honest ,i feel like you are grabbing my heart and showing me everything i couldnt see or idk kind of reminding me of my memories idk ack


    5 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Glorious


    5 months ago
  • lochnessie

    WOAHHHHHHHHHH

    so i don't know how to mention people (ikr) but you're featured! <3


    5 months ago
  • a rose

    hey, this is gorgeous. and um also i think you might like "nothing has to be true" by first aid kit. it has some similar vibes to this and nobody


    5 months ago
  • crystalline•galaxies

    woah, i love the spaces you put after every mention of the word "body." this whole entire piece is just... sunny, you're fantastic. it's heartbreaking and gorgeous and it flows so strangely but it really works well. i'm going to reread this again and again and every time i'm sure i'll get something new out of it.


    5 months ago
  • rwong

    this is so beautifull and heartbreaking oh and also the epigraph is perfect for this!!
    p.s. love your message board lol


    5 months ago