last night i dreamed i saw you again. your face was blank, but i knew it was you,
in the way that one's periphery can recognise. "it's you." i said. you were silent and i said,
"are you better now?" you reminded me you always had been, only the world couldn't keep up with you.
i hugged you tightly as though i could hold all your pieces together. you were light and feathered in my arms but you always had been. i do not know how long i stayed that way.
a whisper of a draft brought me back, and you were cold and crumpled - leaving only a clean white sheet, knotted around my hips and under my elbows. i made my bed and ran from the room. i had left you enough times. when i returned the sheet was turned to dust and ash and it filled my lungs and eyes and ears.
i never could let you go.
sorry for this.. a weird dream about someone i miss lol