LaurenBeeWrites

United States

Name: Amanda
Explanation for username: It's a Spongebob joke
Bands: Waterparks/MCR/TOP
Books: Hunger Games/Shatter Me series
~Teen writer/author~
~Youtube channels~
~Christian~

QUOTE:
"Feel free to feel."

Message to Readers

I am open to any peer reviews!

You Won't Take Me Today.

November 19, 2020

FREE WRITING

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    Spinning, spiraling, twisting into something far worse than my imagination could muster. The reality of time and truth stabs me in the heart, but never lets the sword fully
s i n k.
    I don't know where I'm supposed to go, what I'm going to return to.
    I don't think I like this.
    Mind over matter.
        Maybe not anymore. Not when I'm starting to crack.
I don't think I realize what's happening to me as the word decays. I'm too caught up in my escape.
    Too conflicted. Too naive. Too caught up in my own self-deprecating tendencies.
I'm shaking like an earthquake.
    My soft tremble eases my brain to s l e e p.
Melodies and words mean something more than mainstream fame when I hear them like I do now.
    I don't know what's wrong with me and I'm scared.
Scared. Scared. Scared.
    
The world is losing it's mind.
    It's my choice, now.
    Right? 
You don't know the world behind my eyes. The minimal pain is nothing, comparatively, but I shouldn't compare,
should I?
Oh, but I do.
I am trying so hard to hold onto myself. So. So. Hard.
      I tell myself it's not me, it's the world.
    Right?
No. My choice. Fine. Let's do it. Draw your sword, try your hardest.
Right here. Right now.
    You won't take me today.
Hello Write The World,

This was inspired by multiple feelings and thoughts and songs, (Ode To Sleep and Fall Away by Twenty One Pilots).
Never give up. Never give in. You are not alone. 
<3
-Amanda 

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2 Comments
  • Just_A_Memory

    This is so good! The format really captured my attention, and the way that you word things is phenomenal!


    6 months ago
  • Rachaelgrace

    This is so good! Also, Twenty One Pilots is awesome :) What is your favorite song by them?


    6 months ago