it started when he asked me if i believed in forever
& i said not with him; lindesy, he shouldn't blame me,
should he? i can hardly see two steps ahead of me
how can i know if loving him for eternity is everything
i'm going to want it to be? & i know i should've been
kinder and nice to him, he was the first boy to ever
claim to love me; but lindsey, he broke me by asking
me such an uncertain possibility that hurting him was
my only fair capability.
lindsey, i could hear the promise shattering long before
my family told the news to me; it hung in the air when
my father was the first when it came to leaving. they
never should've lied to me, right lindsey? if my brother
was dying why couldn't somebody tell me before everyone
else started reacting? he's my brother, my one and only
and there's no bond quite like siblings and he's my special
kind of everything. & i know lindsey, you don't have anybody
and we're more than a sister-sister kind of thing, but it's a
magic you'll never quite understand; and for that, i'm sorry.
i hear words a second late and it's unknown how long it takes
to process them, so when inevitability tattooed her secret
across me, i learned that reader was faster than listening
to the screeching, the world was creating. tell me lindsey,
did you know how pretty words on your body can be when
they're given a reason to be? perhaps if it wasn't for you i
would've never known the beauty of a doomed romancing
and my talent of accepting. lindsey, you made a career out
of picking up the people with rough edges; i know because
you found me and i fell in love with you lindsey.
lindsey, i fell in love with you and i don't know what to do.
i blamed you for tearing my heart apart just so you would stay.
lindsey, please tell me a truth & then i'll leave you to find somebody
new; cause being greedy is the last thing you'd want me to do.
lindsey, do you love me too?
my new obsession over songs titled with names left me urging to start name poetry & know here i am, not doing homework listening to the same playlist on repeat & finding myself typing poetry under a single pretentious word we've declared someone's name.
and if you're name is actually Lindsey, well, I think it's super pretty ♡