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Message to Readers

just wrote today. typos. will not be republishing tmr. reposted.

i'm getting to release my dust jacket soon, so if there are any questions you'd like to ask me, just comment them and i'll address them in that piece! this isn't exactly a q&a, just a casual thing. i'll remove it if i'm contacted. ama!


November 15, 2020



this year gifts me a bottle of
stones to swallow. if they are
soft, i sink my teeth into the 
smooth grey and chew slowly. 
if they are solid, i consume it
whole and press a finger to the
lump from the outside. it bulges
but it does not hurt. it sits and 
it dissolves slowly. i close my 
eyes and dream of painless 
lessons, i run my hands up the 
side of my neck and inhale fumes
of red wine to make the process
quicker. this year thrice tears the
lids off my eyes and tells me to 
see until no truth remains to be 
found. it slips a birthday candle
into my hands and tells me to 
hold it to my chest until i feel 
warm again. i drag my palms over
the stuttering flame, and it is 
warm even though it peels off 
the skin of my fingertips and 
sends them to hermes. the wax
melts like a star falls from the 
sky, holds my wishes in its tears.
the stones i have swallowed, the
birthday flames—i accept it all 
on this day, this birthday. it 
flickers, it weighs me down. it 
scorches, it keeps me under. i 
take it all today, i take it all and
i thank it for all that it's done, 
all that it's done, and all that i 
will become.  

i have received so much love and support today, from online and in person. although i cannot hug or thank my friends irl, i can touch their fingers through the glass and send my gratitude through the blue screen. for some, i have only met them online, but they've given me so so much, more than i ever could have asked for. i haven't met this crowd as much, but i can interact more. this birthday has become more than i had imagined, and i'm so grateful. 

(please check message box!!) ily! 


(idk if it fits with the vibe of the piece, i just really like this song and it has birthday in the lyrics, so it works.)


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  • aosora

    im late, but happy happy birthday chrys! i hope you had a lovely day <3

    10 months ago
  • Livsnjutare

    HAPPY BIRTHDAY *blows kazoo* Hope you have a very special day!!

    10 months ago
  • Jasmin khawar

    Beautifully written! Your work is always stunning!!
    And happy birthday <33 and also congrats for 170 followerssss <3

    10 months ago
  • sci-Fi

    Happy birthday! Mine was in quarantine too... not the best day. Beautiful writing as always <3

    10 months ago
  • Lata.B

    This is so beautiful! Happy birthday!!!

    10 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Omigosh it's your birthday?! Happy birthday!!! Love ya. I hope the next choice you make brings you happiness. ;P

    10 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    awwww i love this!!! happy birthday!!! <333 your writing is beautiful. i love the candle imagery and the stones... wow. so creative and beautiful!! <33

    10 months ago
  • mirkat

    like always your imagery and metaphors and the raw emotion awe and inspire me to do make and be. always. whenever i read a piece of yours. also happy birthday!!! i had a quarantine birthday, too.... soon everyone will have had one. wishing you love and luck and all that jazz! as for your message box.... how were you inspired to start writing?(stuff like role models, authors, books, songs, etc.) <3

    10 months ago