not to me
i hate the idea of falling into love.
i wish to never be loved that way.
when i was younger, i thought falling was the only way to love -- a quick tumble like alice into wonderland being led by a little white rabbit with one of those soulmate clocks.
and yet, i yearn so dearly to be loved on purpose now. i want to be remembered and remember every detail of their person, every influx of their voice, every octave of their laugh until is ingrained upon my body. i want to be loved like a fond memory.
and, darling, this is what i could offer to you,
but love isn’t a bargain.
femur bones and existential crises
we learn in biology class that the strongest bone in the human body is the femur
and i wonder if you remember telling me that humans were built to break, to shatter.
i’m not sure if i quite believe that -- i’m not particularly religious,
but if some great god from above were to shape our every bone and vein and heart,
you would think they would make us unbreakable -- all that is ash once was something stronger -- i’m praying that we are, too, but something, perhaps that god i don’t fully believe in, whispers that we are not a femur bone.
. -..- / -. .. .... .. .-.. --- / -. .. .... .. .-.. / ..-. .. -
i learn morse code so i might one day understand the complexities of the universe you’ve built in your mind, but instead, i am disturbed that everytime i say i love you, even just as friends, you tap out that phrase -- ex nihilo nihil fit.
are we truly nothing?
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doodleninja
also, hard relate to the back pain thing #artistproblems XD
doodleninja
I love the imagery in all of these! Stunning writing!
ANSON REYNOLDS
this is.................................
this is amazing. I love the title sooooo much, and it fits the poems so well and this line, "and i wonder if you remember telling me that humans were built to break, to shatter" bc it stopped my brain's whirling for a second. which is pretty rare. but it happened and I am thankful for amazing writing that does that <3 :)
Stone of Jade
also tho def agree on the back hurting when leaning over drawing tablet. I just did that the other day and suffered. but i did art all day so that was a plus haha
Stone of Jade
oh my word! This is so beautiful <3 the imagery you use! the phrases and metaphors! AAAHHH This poetry is STUNNING
journal.scribbles
Wow, I especially love the first piece. And the title is so direct and perfect. So good!!!