em wilder

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call me mirkat (or cordelia)
est. 10/15/20
14│she/her│INFP-A│old soul

i've always fallen in love with the ideas of people.

have an ineffable day!
i can't express how much i love it here...

<3<3<3

Message to Readers

i am a fountain of words today... enjoy?

starving

November 13, 2020

FREE WRITING

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the hollow cavities/of my heart/and stomach/ache for a person/
to love/

         and i know/people care/but it just isn't/can't be/the same/as having/
someone/no you/

                    stroke my hair/and hold my/clammy hand/someone/no you/
who gets/my humor/and can see/all of me/

the beauty/and the pain/and the sorrow/and the joy/bubbling/
                                                     just beneath/the tender/folds of my/skin/

             see my eyes/lite up/in wonder/and see me/crumble/
into a ball/and fall into/a pit of/despair/

                                    they/no you/will be/there/with me/and for me/
tilting my chin/up to yours/

i see you/and hear you/and feel you/you'll whisper/
                      and then my eyes will reach/ yours/

and i will/still be broken/but not alone/never alone/you/with an arm/
          around my fragile waist/

         and/in that moment/i know i have/found my/person/my soulmate/
my kindred spirit/

who will guide me/and teach me/and love me/like never before/and only then/
will i be full/
                                                           
this longing/and hoping/seems useless sometimes/i've romantizised/
                  and imagined/
                                                         
           so many/different scenarios/with me at center stage/soaking in the/
rays of love/

yet this can't be it/right/because i have my/whole life/ahead of me/and
           what do i know/

                but sometimes/i am just/impatient/waiting/and longing/
and filling your hole/with sad songs/that sing to me/

about what it's like/to know you/and lose you/
                                  and then i cry for you/because what if we never meet/

                    and even when i am/with people/i am still alone/
floating on the outskirts/seeing/not really/living/     
                      
      for now/i will be waiting/here/until we wend our way/into each other's/
arms/

and i will/never be/
                          starved again/
                                                                              
                                                                             
                                                                                 
                                                                              
first published november 12, 2020. 

i've seen a lot of poems about love lately... most notably abi's pov's "a poet; an imposter; someone who really wants to be loved, but never could be | synonyms." of course, i could never do their poem justice. this is intspited by theirs, as long with sunny v.'s "sometimes, i forget to:" which is completely undescribable in words unless you read their poem of lone souls and anxious words that will make you cry. anyway. i was feeling the emptiness of love lately, so i wrote this. what stood out to you? fav words/phrases? other things? 

<3<3<3

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12 Comments
  • almost flora kane

    omg i love it. yes this is so good. my favorite lines: "sometimes/i've romantizised/ and imagined/so many/different scenarios/with me at center stage/soaking in the/
    rays of love/" also i was thinking of shouting out you and paisley blue in my bio because you guys are always the first to support me and help me. can i say that we're great friends? much love <3


    4 months ago
  • madeline3.14159

    Wow... Um I don't know what to say besides this is absolutely phenomenal!! I loved the repetition of the 'no you' phrase, it somehow added something else to this piece that I can't describe!
    Re: Thank you so much!! I'm glad you like my piece...
    Also, I would like to thank you on behalf of WtW in general for being such a positive influence and I just want to say all of your comments make me soo happy!! You are just such a sweet person :)


    4 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: dreaming of moonlight dances all my life mir <3


    4 months ago
  • lochnessie

    WHOA


    4 months ago
  • sunny.v

    awww why didn't you tell me about this wonderful shout out you've given me? im so very flattered and touched! thank you, dear. lovely, heartbreaking piece as well. it's so full of emotions that just grip you by the shoulders and shake.
    re: thank u so much for the comment! im glad it was worthy of the nice paragraph you left me, haha. im glad you feel less alone because of it, too! i can't thank you enough for your words. they really brightened my day. stay safe, you know? we won't be alone forever. <3


    4 months ago
  • Stone of Jade

    ummm how are you so talented?? Seriously--this is G.O.R.G.E.O.U.S.


    4 months ago
  • Rachaelgrace (hiatus) :)

    Oh my gosh
    Gorgeous


    4 months ago
  • sci-Fi

    S T U N N I N G .


    4 months ago
  • Jason_claire :)

    I love how flow-y this is (not a word...) but yeah.
    Replying- That counts I guess since you have you than one so yay! thank you! They only had the colors blue, green, red, pink, purple, yellow, and black so I couldn't specific, but a lot of the colors you described sound very intriguing and something I'd defiantly custom-buy just to see the color on a canvas.


    4 months ago
  • Cosmogyral

    beautiful, stark, and unconventional in harsh calamity to our reality.


    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    wow... like abby said, i teared up as i read this. this is so amazing. i dont have words to tell you how much i love this <333


    4 months ago
  • abby.a

    ahhhh this made me tear up. wow. this is stunning. my feeble words could never describe this, so for now i will just have to settle for telling you how lovely this is. <33


    4 months ago