Anne Blackwood

United States

16
Christian
Theatre kid
Singer (soprano)
Poet
Twin (fraternal)
Spoonie
Disfusive
Highly Sensitive Person
Living oxymoron
Kindness Krusader: Blueberry cotton candy
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message from Writer

For everyone who's sat on a tree branch and thought for a while
Or someone who wanted to

Mom to FantasyOtter12, lochnessie, mindfruit, Rohan's Defender, & all
Sis to happy butterfly
birthdaycandles & happygiggles are my apple juice Jesus sisters

Dating Kristoff? He's got a reindeer, a good sense of self... He's got it all.

My profile picture is my "personal crest" I designed and commissioned.

"I was born singing. Most babies cry. I sang an aria."
~ Fairest (book) by Gail Carson Levine

Anxiety must-reads:
https://bit.ly/2YUyome
https://bit.ly/2TsNYSa
And pray. That's the only reason I'm free now.

Toxic

October 28, 2020

FREE WRITING

14

We haven't spoken in months.
Well, you wished me a happy birthday at midnight,
but I know that's just because you never sleep
and you wanted to be the first.

You always made things into a competition.
If I told you about something I did
or bragged about a friend,
you found some sort of sarcastic way to make it seem less important.
It appeared to be all in good fun,
but you said yourself that all sarcasm is based upon truth.

Intentionally or not,
you manipulated my empathy
so that I felt like I couldn't leave you.
Your pain became my main focus.
And that ruined my judgment
and helped nothing but your ego.

Whenever you hurt me,
you told me I was just "too sensitive".
News flash:
You shutting out your emotions
doesn't invalidate mine.
I don't need to stop feeling;
you neeed to start caring that other people do.

One day while we were joking around,
your mom said that we
were basically the same person.
Well we both know that she's wrong about a lot of things,
so just add that to the list.
This is about a friend I need to fully let go of. We had some good times, but for this piece, I needed to focus on the negatives instead of painting over them in search of the few positives.
TO BE CLEAR: This has literally nothing to do with the last piece I posted (which ended up just being a huge misunderstanding).

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10 Comments
  • crystalline•galaxies

    re: hey, thanks so much for your kind comment. it's much appreciated.


    6 months ago
  • Lata.B

    Oh, this is so heartbreaking! I've had this experience in my life:( BUT on a happy note part 4 is out!!


    7 months ago
  • doodleninja

    re: *internal screaming* THANK YOU FOR ALL THOSE SWEET COMMENTS! Okay, now to reply to all them!
    I'm planning to move the series to a writing blog once I'm off of WtW, and idk, we'll see what comes from that :D
    Haha, no worries! you are now officially a Tropie/Tropy! (still gotta work out the kinks in that one :P)
    I love that story about your dad's college roommate XD
    Thank you so much again for all the support! >.<


    7 months ago
  • happygiggles (not as active anymore)

    Replying- Ahahah, I totally get where you're coming from! My parents can be quite strict, but when it comes to romance and my mum, she is convinced she is some sort of match-maker! It's really weird because me and this dude haven't had a real conversation since January and she still acts like we're engaged, like chill. She talks to his mum for ages if she ever sees her on the street too, so kinda scared they have our whole lives planned out xD When it comes to my dad though, he is the complete opposite, he just sees me as his little angel and agrees with me, on the fact that my mum needs to stop with the happygiggles + ______ idea LOL


    7 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    re: haha, thank you :) you're very sweet <3


    7 months ago
  • happygiggles (not as active anymore)

    Replying- Thank you! I don't think I will anytime soon though, I swear my mum acts like she has me betrothed to this one boy and it does my head-in LOL.

    This piece is stunning, there is no other way to put it. It is full of emotion and hurt, and I'm here for all of it, let it all out! Sometimes to realize how toxic a person is, you have to focus on the negatives with them for a while. I'm glad you let them go, we love CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT <3


    7 months ago
  • dream02

    Yes. Just Yes. Leave the friend behind.


    7 months ago
  • anemoia by a thread

    the magnitude of this piece. wow. true and heart-breaking. there's a point where we've gotta stop giving ourselves to people who never realize that all they do is take.


    7 months ago
  • Anlee

    "News flash:
    You shutting out your emotions
    doesn't invalidate mine."
    this is so powerful <33 im glad that you left that friend because those types of relationships are dangerous


    7 months ago
  • Emi

    This is like so relatable. It's so hard to learn to say goodbye to friendships that aren't working out.
    Re: I know; Bella's whole identity literally comes from her vampire boyfriend (not very feminist, huh?) whereas Katniss is so tough and amazing (plus she still has a beautiful fulfilling relationship with Peeta).


    7 months ago