almost flora kane

United States

my pen name is flora kane. i'm a slytherin, infp-t, christian, and generally insane. joined 3.30.2018.

~ will do reviews on request ~

currently hoping i don't lose anyone else.

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please help. i don't want these feelings.

don't. and never. and you? (the curse of a crush)

October 23, 2020

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when is it all right to refuse pretty 
eyes, lying in trying times, 
never looking to the falling sky?
not kind. i try to be unkind. 
dark hair and dark mind. 
i want to see you smile.

forget it,
i can’t get attached. 
the rope is already around my neck,
but i’ll 
not.
i’ll get over love. 
i’ll get over us that never was.
a whole great mess of 
don’t. please.

why must i laugh in almost happiness?
i say now, i won’t 
until a few minutes later,
when i don’t want to give up my fantasies.

stop!
telling me we’ll be best friends,
with your casual conversation.
i refuse to cry over
nothing, and a broken promise.

(which i knew was a joke
the first time you spit 
out the words in passing.)

stupid girl.
stupid boy. 
share insults 
as if we are more than 
two strangers
sitting at a subway station.
any advice on getting rid of a crush? i don't want to mess it all up again.
but damn it. i like him.

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5 Comments
  • anemoia by a thread

    the pain in this is so visceral. i am sort of clueless as well. but time really does work wonders. so does God. and like mystifiedtulip said, it's not wrong to have feelings. you don't have to feel like you need to get rid of them. but i'm sorry that i can't help you more. best of luck.


    7 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    dude i know <333 this is hard. i wish i could help but honestly im as clueless as you <33 sending love and support your way


    7 months ago
  • Rachaelgrace

    Oooo this is great!


    7 months ago
  • tas (yellowbrickrd)

    re: thank you sm! i can't tell you how happy i am you know sherlock. i just finished watching it last week and im obsessed. i really love your pen name... anyway id love to be friends!

    also how to get rid of crushes. dont i guess. its a special feeling. i love this piece. the confusion is too relatable.


    7 months ago
  • mystifiedtulip

    ok. first of all, too relatable. and second of all, i don't really have solid advice on getting rid of crushes, but all i could say is that at the end of the day, you both are human. so don't feel like you should try to get rid of this sort of feeling. i guess it's normal for everyone, and if you actually like him, maybe you should know him better. you would never know if he feels the same way unless you go for it. :)

    p.s. ik im bad at giving advice but i couldnt help it XD!


    7 months ago