Paisley Blue

United States

they/them | 6.2.2020
lesbian & genderfluid | christian

full of wonder

Message to Readers

hey everyone! Republished because this piece just was accepted into Issue five of the Ice Lolly Review! Check it out--it will be coming out sometime soon!
Hope you all are doing well <33 :)

énouement

November 5, 2020

FREE WRITING

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memories and mist swirl around my frozen form, leaving
no trace of what could have been, in the damp chill that never leaves for long.
and there's so much i never thought i'd know, so much
i never thought i'd be. but here i am, watching the world pass me by
flung into the depths of a river deep and wide
drowning in the pain, the ache in my heart, when i couldn't help you
i wished i knew what to do. i smile because if i don't laugh, i'll cry.
the train pulls into the station and i know i have no choice
still, something in me wants to run,
something in me wants to stay behind and forget the world, forget
what has forgotten me. there's no reason to stay, but that is reason enough.
still, while the silence pounds in my ears, i feel the lullaby of simple assurance that
someday is today and tomorrow never came
face of the future will never look my way
so i board the train, let my breath fog the window,
look out into the gray. there i see someone who could be me,
if not for the faint look of hope on their face
who i might have become, watching the trail of smoke rise into the
endless sky, waving goodbye, simply striving to survive.
https://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com/post/34300648208/%C3%A9nouement

énouement - the bittersweetness of having answers, seeing how things turn out, but not being able to share them with your past self 

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37 Comments
  • Rose A. (semi hiatus)

    Congratulations!! I'm so excited for you and mirkat! This poem was awesome, and you totally deserved it!


    about 2 months ago
  • chrysanthemums&ink

    congratulations on getting published with this piece! wait a sec did i never comment on here properly? asdlkfjas;dl i'm so sorry! it's a little late so i won't dawdle but truly, congrats. this piece absolutely deserves it and you deserve it even more <3


    about 2 months ago
  • mirkat

    shouted u out...
    https://writetheworld.com/groups/1/shared/205571/version/422662


    about 2 months ago
  • JustAnotherDarling

    omg so my brain saw French (in which, this word means "loathing") so I got a wholeeee different feeling from this poem, and then I read it again after reading the footnotes (silly me) and oh my. i just love this. both ways! <3


    3 months ago
  • dead account

    re:
    come join me on the Young Writer's Society lol

    also, you can totally respectfully disagree with someone..i just hate when people insert their own opinion like it would hold any weight against a writer's differing opinion, y'know?


    3 months ago
  • mirkat

    OH MY, CONGRATS YOU TOTALLY DESERVE THIA YAYYYY I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU ELLA!!!!!! like really-- this is actually one of my fav pieces by you.... congrats of u lations!!! <3<3<3


    3 months ago
  • abby.a

    I CAN SEE HOW THIS WAS ACCEPTED THIS IS STUNNING. dude, seriously, this is amazing. i'm so happy for you


    3 months ago
  • AmethystsAlias

    Re: I love her so much! Her personality rocks! Tbh my first fictional crush was Percy Jackson, because anyone who reads PJO had a crush on him at one point, yknow? Right now I would say Ginny Weasley or Cedric Diggory are my fictional crushes


    3 months ago
  • mirkat

    Re: Funny story.... I haven't actually read Looking for ALaska. My mom insists I'm not ready to read it (thank you mom!), but I really really really want to. My friend read it, told me all about it, and shared the quote with me. It's become one of my favorites. I love John Green, though. His writing is so relatable and funny and poetic and sad and beautiful. I've read Paper Towns and TFIOS... Paper Towns is my favorite book by him. What is your favorite John Green book? <3 <3 <3


    3 months ago
  • Mia2004

    RE: Awww thank you <3 I love yours too xx
    I use to have a rainbow one, but then I fell more in love with purple.


    3 months ago
  • mirkat

    Re: Jane Austen is the best! All her work is hilarious. I love P+P, especially Lizzy. She's such a strong character. I haven't read Emma, it's on my list, but I've read Northanger Abbey which is also pretty good (although Catherine, the main character, is so ignorant it's kinda annoying). What I really want to read is "The Tenant of Wildfell Hall" by Anne Bronte, but my mom says it's too mature for me (deals with domestic abuse).
    80ssss music! Yay! I love Journey even though they are overrated. Walk Like AN Egyptian by the Bangles is my current 80s fav. I have an 80s playlist on Spotify with like 75 songs, so it's hard to choose a favorite! XD <3 <3 <3


    3 months ago
  • chrysanthemums&ink

    replying: yes, they've all been on wtw before! and thank you for your submission :)


    3 months ago
  • mirkat

    OH MY GOSH! This is simply brilliant! It honestly made me tear up... How did you do this? It's almost a song of a sweet, melancholy goodbye. I love the metaphor of boarding a train, too. I can't stop thinking about this... and these lines: "something in me wants to stay behind and forget the world, forget/ what has forgotten me. there's / no reason to stay, but that is reason enough./ still, while the silence pounds in my ears, i/ feel the lullaby of simple assurance that/ someday is today and tomorrow never came." I am still crying... Also, I love the Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows! I spend hours on there sometimes. ANyway... you are a phenomenal writer.


    3 months ago
  • Abrianna

    Thanks Ella! and wow! you really did great on this one. and I like you're Leaves of Grass, quote, have you read that whole book?


    3 months ago
  • midnight.summerrose

    WOW!!! So amazing!! :) I love it, your writing is so good and you're so talented!!


    3 months ago
  • AmethystsAlias

    It's beautiful isn't it?! I LOVE IT SO MUCH AND I AM SO DOWN TO TALK ABOUT IT! Have an amazing day yourself!


    3 months ago
  • AmethystsAlias

    Re: Tagatha is the ship name between Tedros and Agatha in the world of School for Good and Evil


    3 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    replying: aww thank you so much,that means alot to me.i'm so happy you liked the piece:)


    3 months ago
  • .amelia.

    This is amazingly vivid, which has thus created a beautifully devastating mood in the poem
    the imagery is amazing!!
    Great job :)

    re: thank you so much for your feedback on Melancholy (like...15 days ago lol) it was quite useful


    3 months ago
  • LindytheRavenclaw

    AAACK I DIDNT COMMENT ON THIS HOW DARE I
    THIS IS BEAUTIFULLLLLLLLLL AND SO GOOD AND I LOVE HOW YOU WRITE AHHH


    3 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    thank you dear i've missed your sweet heart.it means so much that you came to check on me.i have left a long comment on my new piece with some explanation. i'm basically falling asleep now but i'll try talk more tomorrow<3


    3 months ago
  • Currently Unavailable

    I have started the series you asked to be notified for! The Life of a Fifteen-year-old Superhero is here! <3
    https://writetheworld.com/groups/1/shared/192944/version/400578


    3 months ago
  • almost flora kane

    have i really not said how amazing this piece is??
    also re: thank you for the title idea! i've landed on "a world of gray" for now. i posted a part 2 if you're interested:)


    3 months ago
  • mia_:)

    hey!! of course you can use the title!! i love the piece!! simply lovely!


    3 months ago
  • sunny.v

    aaa i love this piece! it embodies the meaning of the words so clearly- "someday is today and tomorrow never came "- how pretty is that? lovely work!


    3 months ago
  • abby.a

    this is so beautiful. stunning. i am blown away. i love this so, so much. ahhHHHHHHHH


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: <3
    hugs and lamingtons FOREVER,
    ness


    3 months ago
  • anonymous_123

    Chapter 2 is finally out! Sorry for the long wait. It’s the romance novel for Hes here. The new chapters will come out every Wednesday! Sorry again for such a long what! I promise to be more on task with that! Thank you for checking it out and have a blessed day!


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: that's okay... after i put up the message board i got some comments from a few different people and although i respect everyone's right to their beliefs i don't know that i belong here like i thought i did XD. anyway i'm just on hiatus for a bit while i work that out.


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: all good, have emailed support!


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    hi again!
    would you know how to delete an account?
    hugs and lamingtons, ness


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: haha yeah i just seem to keep adding more i need to stop


    3 months ago
  • beth r.

    re: NO. thats not what i meant you're like one of my fav writers XD


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    re: awww thank you <33
    hahah my conditions of following are extremelyy important


    3 months ago
  • lochnessie

    ohhh stunning


    3 months ago
  • beth r.

    re: yours is so wonderfully unique, i don't think i could catogorize it lol


    3 months ago
  • beth r.

    diction is beautiful!
    re: thanks!


    3 months ago