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A Day at the Mall: Society's Stereotypes and What They Do To Me.

September 24, 2020



i’m wearing my favorite Shirt
    is it too Pink?
i think my Shorts are too High
    maybe i should change?
too Tight.
    should i buy new Jeans?

i’m just standing—
Hip jutted out, weight on one Leg—
but i still sense the Stares
    should i not Lean?
i feel Eyes on my Back as
i Walk sticky mall corridors
    are my Hips swinging Too Much?

Knowing Looks are sent my way
when i Gesticulate just a bit too Loudly
    should i keep my Hands at my sides?
Eyebrows jump when i Talk
    should i Lower my Voice to a Baritone?
eyes roll when i Converse
‘we heard you the first time’
    do i talk about Myself Too Much?

i want my Hair to be Fire-Hydrant-Red
    would that be Too Much?
i’d like Silver dangling from my Ears
    but does it Matter that i want that?
i can’t have Colors dancing across my Fingernails
    what, you think i’d let Them see that?
No Face Paint.
    what, are you Crazy?

i can tell he knows about me
    am i making Him Uncomfortable?

A Sideways Glance, a Snicker with a Friend, an Open Stare
A Smile not quite hidden by a Hand
        is it crazy that i always Notice?


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  • rainandsonder

    this piece really is the transmasc experience. i live in a pretty liberal place but i’ll still sometimes get weird looks, especially since i have three ear piercings. once i went into the women’s restroom- which “biologically” would be the “correct” bathroom for me- and someone told me i wasn’t in the right bathroom which i just found funny. this piece is really well-written, i’m sorry that that happens to you and i know the feeling!

    5 months ago
  • Karma's_Coming

    Um, YES to the fire-hydrant-red hair!! I don’t know what you look like (obviously) but I am 99.99999% you would rock it. Plus, there’s never been a better time then quarantine to try something new. It gives you time to thoroughly wash it out if you end up not liking it. This piece in general though, is amazing. It captures that relatable self conscious feeling so well. Anyway, have a nice day (or well, night I guess).

    5 months ago
  • JustAnotherDarling

    I agree with Doodleninja - the way you use capitalization in this is so effective. If there's one thing I had to complain about this piece - it wouldn't even be about your writing; I'm annoyed - to say the least >:( - that society has made you hyperaware of these things in the first place :(

    you should get to wear your pinkest shirt! own your shorts! (unless it's getting cold, and you truly just prefer jeans) swing your hips as much or as little as you'd like to! and face paint? YES.
    I hope there's a day when you can have that <3

    5 months ago
  • Charisse Marison

    The capitalization is so cool! And this is so relatable, honestly. I'm always scared of what I wear, what I look like, what others think of me. Don't let them get to you, you are amazing <3

    5 months ago
  • Coolgirl2020 (LOVE YA ALL)

    Wow. I love this! And I can totally relate; every day it's just me trying not to care about what other people think or how they react, but in the end, I can't help it.

    5 months ago
  • doodleninja

    Love how you used capitalization in this! Also the almost rapid, breathless flow rly added to the point that it’s tiring to be super self-conscious. Love this piece! :)

    5 months ago
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    5 months ago