United States

est. 2018
she/her | poeian
obsessed classics enthusiast.
reading: the memory keeper's daughter
there's nothing but love & hope in these bones.

Message to Readers

short proses 'cause the one-liners on my notes app aren't corresponding

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September 17, 2020



i haven't seen the stars in forever; no, not since we ripped them from the heavens, for you to sew together into the lace gloves i wore every night i thought of you; it seems, i haven't thought ouf you in forever.

irony, the art of moving on; do you think heartbreak is the end or peak of our golden hour?; that span of our life when we feel for the briefest moment of our existence, that we're worth more than what they've given us.

how come i once confessed every truth that created me, but now i can barely seem to recall the sound of your heartbeat?; shouldn't i remember there was more than your looks that made me fall in love with you?; it all seems like a fading dream, and i rarely reach to remember them anymore.

how did bathing ourselves in the sun's rays while kissing on the beach every sunday, turn to me volunteering at the shelter with my best friend on saturdays?; i was far too young to realize it then, but maturity came to smiling at the end of every day; perhaps, by night i shouldn't be crying or worrying about what someone else to say.

you weren't my beginning, nor will you be my ending, you were simply the ing; the acting phase of my life where i was trying to decide everything, learning that sometimes you have to just keep going and it's okay to not be okay; like moving on, was okay.

you were cute, back when i thought boys would be my ruin; but i need me more than i want someone else who's charming when he's commanding; and perhaps one day i'll find a man, something you always wanted to be, but if i die alone, at least it'll be easy leaving.
title is based on a comment from lovely, sweetheart ek503, who i believe to definitely be an underrated writer. her style is soft poetry and reflection, meaning it doesn't fully hit until the end and then you see it's brilliance. so mini shout out to you love !


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  • happy butterfly

    this is so beautiful.i love how your pieces tell so many stories and feelings but also are so poetic.the second stanza was so gorgeous,i can't get over it.oh dmoral,you always leave me wondering

    20 days ago
  • Wisp

    When I first saw the title I thought it meant "I Hate You," but after reading the piece, it feels more like healing and forgiveness. Or like growing older and realizing that first loves will always burn bright in memory, but you'll grow and move on eventually. I'm not quite sure, but it gives me this sense of moving on from a breakup or something. Thinking more on it, I'd like to believe that it's about first love and the first heartbreak that comes with it. I don't know, but whatever it is, it's certainly a beautiful piece to read. It's like watching a flower bloom/flourish, growing and learning how to heal again. There's something magnetic in this and it's certainly lovely to watch come together.

    22 days ago
  • lochnessie

    this is so beautiful, and also strangely relatable, and just so SO very good.
    in AWE :0

    4 months ago
  • dovetrees

    so GORGEOUS! "no, not since we ripped them from the heavens" this is such beautiful imagery, i wish i could create stunning pictures like this -- so much talent!

    4 months ago
  • ek503

    GAHH THANK YOU with all of my soft mushy hearttt (I saw the title and had a mini heart attack, hence the increased mushiness of it today <3)
    but this piece is seriously beautiful!! i was captivated once i saw "i haven't seen the stars in forever; no, not since we ripped them from the heavens". and "you weren't my beginning, nor will you be my ending, you were simply the ing" !! gorgeous. my little midnight acronym (and a useless one till now since i forgot what half-asleep-me wanted it to mean) has found a far better home now, thanks to you <33

    4 months ago
  • outoftheblue

    i am SO here for the ek appreciation in the footnotes

    4 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    This is so beautiful! i love how delicate it is--it seems to me that the words themselves are smiling down at me. wonderful piece! also, ek503's writing is, like you said, underrated for how amazing it is!
    I love this! <3

    4 months ago