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叶安灵 // 16, 2022 // she-her-hers
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Message to Readers

someone made a comment to me about how they're never coming back after our high school graduation, and it inspired this.

to the kids i met in kindergarten

September 6, 2020

FREE WRITING

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we’re getting old
and it doesn’t scare me
because i knew these days would come.
i’ve fallen in love with
just about every boy in this town 
(five times over),
how the leaves go kaleidoscope on me
in the fall
and our football team is trash
but i still pray every year we make playoffs.

one day we’ll be old,
coming back home to collect our childhood dreams,
some of us still stuck in the hallways
because nothing ever got as good as now.

i want to go far from here,
to see a sea that isn’t so sound,
to move on land not so concrete as the pavements
i know inside and out
and back to my house.

but i’ll be there for our reunion,
hopefully well traveled and past
my teenage foolishness.

i apologize in advance
because i know that there are names i will forget
but i promise
a semblance of each of you
is with me until death.
fun fact: every year from kindergarten to the fourth grade, i shared a class with the same 25 children. i moved in the second grade (to a completely different continent) and when i returned two years later, and it was like i never left.

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9 Comments
  • journal.scribbles

    This poem almost made me cry. I have a similar relationship with some kids in my grade; I've known them since kindergarten, and sometimes it feels like I'm the only one holding on to this sense of belonging that I've always felt with them. Anyways. Your pieces are so heartfelt and feel so honest and I love reading them.


    3 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    wow your pieces are so raw and so easu to fall in love with becuase its so easy to connect with and ughhh stop your talent is too beautiful


    3 months ago
  • ek503

    so many of your pieces are personal and have such a way with emotions asjhjkgha and this piece is no exception. i love love love it <3


    3 months ago
  • EliathRose

    This piece is amazing! It’s so soft and sweet.


    3 months ago
  • Rohan’s Defender (Rudolph’s Defender #holidayvibes)

    Awww! That’s so neat that you have that connection with your classmates! Wow! THIS PIECE IS AMAZING!


    3 months ago
  • JustAnotherDarling

    Ah! This is beautiful. It makes me nostalgic and now all I want is to go home. Your experiences sound like something my soul craves from the inside out - and you described everything so beautifully <3


    3 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    "and when i returned two years later, and it was like i never left." I know that's not even part of the piece, but it hit me so hard... If only that was what happened all the time...
    Okay enough feeling sorry for myself.
    This piece is amazing! I really love it. My favorite parts were
    "i’ve fallen in love with
    just about every boy in this town
    (five times over),"
    and
    "because i know that there are names i will forget
    but i promise
    a semblance of each of you
    is with me until death."


    3 months ago
  • rainandsonder

    reading this brings this feeling of such peace. it’s a little melancholy but mostly hopeful, and the little details you include about your town really bring it to life. fantastic work!


    3 months ago
  • ava09 (angels, auroras and sad prose #holidayvibes)

    i love this.


    3 months ago