rat in a hat

United States

i'm pretentious and annoying but i think that's okay, i own two lava lamps. i love spider-man, ABBA, anything muppet-related, bill and ted, and john everett millais' rendition of ophelia. i hate sitcom laugh tracks.

chaotic good

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love your friends and be as stupid as you can be <2

dive underwater and remember the three rules your mother gave you

August 29, 2020



sugar still dissolves in my mouth, but i can’t stand its flavor anymore
what once tasted like summer and flowers, 
sweet and grassy and crisp
(i remember eating chives straight off the stem and sucking down nectar at outdoor festivals. did it taste like honey because all of the honey that melted on our tongues those days, or did it taste like honey because we were golden and melting in the warm light of the sun?)
now tastes bitter, sour, fiery
a cup of gasoline poured down the length of my throat
and i am gulping it desperately like any liquid could quench my thirst

chocolate and vanilla swirl bought at the mom and pop stand near the lake
i was only invited twice, but i devoured its sweetness as if it was my home every other weekend
as if i’d be jumping in the icy, blue-green water (warmer than the other lake, my lake, but icy nonetheless) for hundreds of fridays and saturdays to come
see, now it’s been years since i’ve even dipped my toes in a puddle
and i think i should’ve savored ice cream and lake house weekends more

lavender and summer and swimming
you couldn’t have told me that one day i’d never taste the sugar of any of them again
you should have told me i shouldn’t try,
i’ve had two out of three now and i know
they‘re not nearly as sweet
bitter, sour, fiery
and i can’t even recall the memories where they were summer and flowers to me


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  • Inimitable

    Somehow so simple yet deep. Amazing writing! (btw I (well, my pc I guess) am also chaotic good ;D)

    3 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood


    3 months ago
  • outoftheblue

    ahh 2 gorgeous poems in two days??
    we are not worthy of your talent.

    3 months ago
  • Paisley Blue

    Wow... this is gorgeous! Man, what's with the nostalgia today?? This poem is so beautiful and raw. <3

    3 months ago