ek503

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reaping smiles for tomorrow

August 2, 2020

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gathering her hair in her hands, she pulls,
no force to keep her at bay, and
the strands snake through breaths, with 
no ripples, no anchor on either side, besides
her hand, which shouldn’t count 
as mass at all.

cracking her knuckles, she clenches her fist,
watching her joints smile up at her, roll in their sockets,
and scramble off her palm, some trailing apologies down her wrist.
she grimaces at the sight of her empty mouth, 
though the empty eye sockets in her head
often lie.

gulping back tears, she inhales deeply,
the saline flood thickening beside her spine,
and she’s choking, sputtering, gasping
for breath, until she remembers 
the gaping hole in her throat where
her voice used to be.

craning her neck to smell the sunrise,
her shaking frame stands beneath the day,
and she lifts her chin, willing her back to 
straighten, her trembling to cease, 
and she inhales deeply once again,
this time smiling.

she collects her smiles, one by one, till she can recall who she used to be.

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6 Comments
  • ElsaRee

    this is soo beautiful!!


    4 months ago
  • journal.scribbles

    WHOA this piece is amazing! I love the lines "watching her joints smile up at her, roll in their sockets, / and scramble off her palm, some trailing apologies down her wrist." So good!


    4 months ago
  • Dmoral

    "and scramble off her palm, some trailing apologies down her wrist. / she grimaces at the sight of her empty mouth, / though the empty eye sockets in her head / often lie."
    i LOVE this! the metaphors here are so unique and creates such abstract but powerful imagery, and i love the hints of emotion you get from reading these lines.

    "until she remembers / the gaping hole in her throat where / her voice used to be."
    this is one of my favorite parts because you describe this wonderfully. the strength in here is incredible, and i love how you talk about "losing" your voice and how she realizes it. ugh, so good!

    "she collects her smiles, one by one, till she can recall who she used to be."
    okay, the ending has my heart. this indirect way to talk about regaining/rebuilding yourself is so powerful. i love how you talking about "collecting smiles" like coins, like little treasures and also as a way to find her joy, happiness, and person again.


    4 months ago
  • Hazel Nut

    I absolutely love the title of your piece. I suck at coming up with titles but your's sounds gorgeous.


    4 months ago
  • erin!

    replying: i'm also an over thinker, definitely the queen of making mountains out of molehills ;)


    4 months ago
  • kealoha

    This is absolutely gorgeous :)


    4 months ago