Anne Blackwood

United States

17
Christian
Poet
Singer
Theatre kid
Twin
Disabled (chronically ill)
Suspected autistic
ADHD
Highly Sensitive Person
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message to Readers

I may or may not be experiencing this literally right now

Nyctophobia?

July 28, 2020

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How did I fall out of love with the night?
Things aren't supposed to change that quickly,
But evening went from being a build up to peace
To anxiety reaching its claws into my solitude.
I used to gaze up at stars or my bedroom ceiling.
Now my heart pounds with every second.
There's nothing to explain this immediate shift,
And I wish I didn't have to spend the dark hours
Using earbuds to try to drown out insanity.
Last night and the night before I've had horrible, unexplainable anxiety at night.

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8 Comments
  • Christy Wisdom

    re: first of all, thank you! That's really sweet of you.
    Aside from the re, first of all i really hope the anxiety gets better for you soon! Second of all, it's kind of amazing how much meaning you convey within just one stanza. Kudos!


    about 1 year ago
  • birthdaycandles

    It is one thing to share this experience and yet another thing to share it using such beautiful phrases “Using earbuds to try to drown out insanity” is my favourite line. Music helps in almost any situation. Thank you for sharing, I actually had no idea what ‘nyctophobia’ was before reading this, but I’m glad that I know now. I hope it gets easier for you :)


    about 1 year ago
  • Emi

    Wow, that sounds pretty scary. My suggestion is put on a lot of worship music. I used to have anxiety/nightmares whenever I slept away from home and listening to Christian music really helped change the atmosphere. Praying for you!


    about 1 year ago
  • Tushar Mandhan

    Are you alright now? Anxiety is.....just so hard to deal with. Relatable.


    about 1 year ago
  • inanutshell

    "anxiety reaching its claws into my solitude" is such an apt way of putting it. sometimes i feel this way too, and it always sucks. hope it goes away & you feel better soon <3


    about 1 year ago
  • Lata.B

    "To anxiety reaching its claws into my solitude." was my favorite line! This was so good!!
    This was such a relatable poem...I hope the anxiety dies down for you: )


    about 1 year ago
  • BlueOwl

    That first verse is sUCH a strong line! Really good! I hope your pain eases soon tho.


    about 1 year ago
  • happy butterfly

    oh darling i hope you get better soon.I'm sure you will,i will pray for you<3
    also you portrayed the emotion so well btw


    about 1 year ago