rat in a hat

United States

i'm pretentious and annoying but i think that's okay, i own two lava lamps. i love spider-man, ABBA, anything muppet-related, bill and ted, and matt fraction’s hawkeye. i hate sitcom laugh tracks.

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currently listening to doomsday disco by eli josef

summertime and a longing you've never felt before

August 7, 2020



robin, flitting above my head
i see how you long to rest your wings on the clouds

do you think we bloom and grow underneath fruit trees?
because under my cherry tree in this july heat, i know i do
it is such an easy rhythm
to pull one off from the branch (i know which are ripe without giving it much thought, i’ve been doing this for years) and pop it into my mouth
bite down in the just right way to release the pit
spit it out as far away from me as i can
just because it’s summer, and just because it’s fun
it’s not even a good year for cherries, but i am outside eating them anyways
they taste sweet and they taste like my childhood
and those are two things that, one day, you’ll never be able to taste again

there is a point of no return in all things
sugar and youth top the list, filling two spaces though they’re one and the same, really

july is ending and i can accept that
really, i can,
but i cannot honestly tell you i won’t  miss the turquoise blue flooding my room every morning
i can’t say i won’t miss the warm night heat mixing with my heavy blankets
i can’t say that time hasn’t slipped through my fingers each day since time began, not so long ago even now,
and i cannot tell you i am looking forward to tomorrow when it’s a word spoken in august
but i won’t cover my ears when i hear it said
maybe i’ll even say it myself
i don’t know what rhythm i’ll find in august
but i promise i will keep looking for one.
wrote this before july ended and it took me 7845682793 days to actually publish it.


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  • Paisley Blue

    this is so well-written and sweet! Summer slips by too quickly—no, life slips by too quickly. Your poem immortalizes the feelings of summer. Wonderful writing! <3

    11 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood (summer camp hiatus)

    You are one of the most underrated writers here. I've probably said that before, but I can't get over how talented yet relatively unknown you are.

    12 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    woah this is insanely beautiful

    12 months ago
  • EliathRose

    I love this so much! It’s really pretty. Also, have I ever told you how much I love your pfp and username? It’s so cute.

    12 months ago
  • happygiggles (not as active anymore)

    This is so good! I love your profile picture too!

    12 months ago