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My eternal resolution will do too much. - "Orlando" by Blood Orange


July 20, 2020

i envy those gardens that are vast as meadows and brimming with beauty
those gardens never seem to stop growing
and will keep growing
their flowers stretch up to sun
those kinds of people are the ones
who have hearts tended with love and care

the garden that i have is small, fenced, and bland
it's not a garden; it's a patch of soil that needs work
i need a lot of work

again, i have hurt someone
with my narrow mind and selfish thoughts
the direction i'm going, i won't have anyone to rely on
i won't have any seeds nor water to grow them

what can i do to stop this?
it's my fault after all
my eyes are trained on shallow desires and fake pleasure
i can pretend that my flowers will come but soon enough 
i will run out of time

i fear my garden will never grow into something grand and gorgeous
because at the end of the day
i'm the one who's mouth stays shut,
eyes cast down,
and lips sealed
here's to another moment of me being "wow, i suck"


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  • bellairet

    I really like this piece. It's an interesting metaphor and some of the lines here are so good! "my eyes are trained on shallow desires and fake pleasure". I also love the way it ended, you can feel how it kind of trails off but it's still there and it's very atmospheric. I think there's a typo in that last stanza, the "who's" should be "whose". And hey, there's nothing wrong with dirt, I love dirt (lol).

    7 months ago