A Certain Type of Decisive

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Message to Readers

I wish I was a cute and oblivious science major and a dramatic, yet clumsy art major had an obvious crush on me for years. They started sending cryptically beautiful letters and reveal themselves to me in a tense moment in the rain after I try to have them arrested for breaking into my car to place the next letter.

Human (Being/Living/Thinking)

August 22, 2020


I can draw people but I can't draw flowers
I asked her for something worth holding
And she grabbed my face and whispered
But I don't mind because
We're only human
I miss seeing strangers--
It's so much harder to write without them
I'm just a romantic with no one to fall for
And I worry if I look too long in the mirror, I'll stop thinking I'm beautiful
I never had body image problems
Because my memory's not good enough
To remember what I look like when I'm in public
Or to remember what others look like when I'm at home
I cry over little things
And it's exhausting
A colorblind clown might accidentally pick clothes that match
At least we can count on stripes and polka-dots and
Not all love is pretty and pure
Sometimes it's gross and I don't mind
We're only human, after all
I'm still scared of thunder
But I can talk to cashiers, so maybe we're even?
I'd tell you to call when you're lonely
But you're a better writer
I get long winded about just about anything about
So maybe it's not meant to be
And I don't mind
We're only human
I can draw myself, but only in cartoon form
Details are too big, but big things are just small enough
I used to think I was observant
But I'm not
And I don't mind 
'Cause I'm only human
She writes pretty little letters
With her pretty little hands
But I can't read, so I guess it doesn't matter
I wish I could draw flowers
They look nice on anniversary cards
I'm just a kid with fantasies of love
I think I'm pretty, even if it doesn't matter
She asked me for something worth saying
I pulled her close, but I had nothing for her except
But I don't mind
We're only human, after all


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  • FantasyOtter12

    Replying--Nice to hear what you thought :) I took it down bc it would probably have gotten taken down soon anyways but it was nice to hear different opinions on it

    3 months ago
  • Maya'sTired

    I love this piece so much. I love what is repeated, and how romanticized the whole thing is. "And I worry if I look too long in the mirror, I'll stop thinking I'm beautiful" really got me because I've felt this to.

    3 months ago
  • Bookwitch

    OMG, I love this. It is literally the definition of being human.

    3 months ago
  • rainydayz

    i adore this piece and i agree with anne blackwood that would be a cool rom com

    3 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    Oh and your message to readers is a rom-com I need in my life

    3 months ago
  • Anne Blackwood

    It's ridiculous that the thing I relate to in this piece is "I used to think I was observant
    But I'm not" but it is. Like I thought I was so observant and then I realized I started going to school with someone I used to know and it took me like a year to realize he stopped wearing glasses

    3 months ago