taking refuge in your fidelity

i. refuge is crying
/ you open your arms and i collapse into them, alkaline relief flowing from my pores / stroke my hair, braid my soul, leech the pain from my eyes / mutter incoherently, but i don't care / the fact that you're here is what matters / plates clink in the kitchen and still, you wrap your shell around me and protect me from the pain / our meal turns cold, but our hearts are warm and full / i'll always be here for you, love / i carry those words in my heart; my lifeboat when the going gets tough /

ii. refuge is laughing
/ effervescent sounds bubble in your chest / is it possible to taste joy? / i complain of jaw pain from smiling around you / just seeing your face makes it impossible to smile / rolling down hills and dissolving into fits of giggles / you blow dandelion seeds to the wind and laugh as the sky swallows them / oh baby, your sanguine aura merges with mine and we can't do anything but grin /

iii. refuge is creating
/ it feels as if i've been holding my breath and can finally exhale as i step up to my easel, sharpen my pencil, tune my flute / i play, i sing, i create as if everyone is watching but no one pressures me / a haven, yes, a portal into anywhere you want / take my hand and we'll pluck the d string together / prime the canvas for optimal results / i don't care about technique, darling, so long as we're together /

iv. refuge is living
/ yes, sometimes the marigold rains wet your hair / bees sting, but where would we be without them? / babe, don't shy away in fear / let the ocean lap at your feet and let the snow cluster on your eyelids / live every moment to the fullest, for it could be our last together / stop and smell every rose, even if it starts to drizzle / cloud gaze and harmonize with the sounds of nature / you're my refuge, and as long as we're together, everything will be more than fine /