HelpMe512

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"If I wait 'til my tomorrow comes, is the waiting all I've ever done?"
-Ben Platt

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This was a difficult piece to write, to say the least.

heart of glass | #varmebolger

June 21, 2020

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Trigger warning: mental illness

imagine a steel weight
crushing your heart of glass
but you can't talk to anyone
because it would crush them too

and you can't break
or even splinter
'cause your sharp edges
would hurt those around you

so you strain
to stay together
while the weight
leaves a nasty scar

you think the only way
to not break apart
is to get rid of
who you are

so you break away
your heart of glass
and replace it with
a heart of stone

and once you realize
what you've done
it's too late
and you're left all alone

you scramble to pick
your pieces up
but you've already
started to fall

you're too afraid
you're too far gone
to say what you have done
so you say nothing at all

you let yourself
break your heart
as you try
to put your glass back in

you can only see regret
and all the while
the heart of stone
grinds into your skin

you feel like there is nothing
worth it anymore
you feel like you can
only give up hope

but you are too afraid
to give up on what you know
so you try to find
another way to cope

you discover a passion
you never knew you had
you start to write poetry
about all that you've been through

and though each day's a battle
although you're far from healed
you're building back your heart of glass
so you can start anew
lowercase intentional
for prompt 3 of Vinter Vejen's contest
so this is really edgy but i feel like it's the only accurate way to describe depression and anxiety, and what it's truly like. It's not just "being sad" or "being nervous", it's a constant battle with yourself. i'm better now, and i hope anyone struggling with this gets the help they deserve. <3

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6 Comments
  • Charisse Marison

    This is exactly what it feels like. I hope your feeling better, though. If you want to talk, I'm also here :)


    5 months ago
  • ~wildflower~

    This conveys so much emotion and the metaphor was perfect! Such a lovely rhythm, too.


    5 months ago
  • inanutshell

    love the rhymes! and i'm really glad you're better now :)


    5 months ago
  • Samina

    I can relate. Lovely rhyme and flow. Amazing!


    5 months ago
  • Deleted User

    This is lovely, I love the rhyming scheme :)
    -This is to acknowledge i’ve seen your entry-


    5 months ago
  • pineapples

    i usually don't really enjoy poetry, because i just don't feel like i connect to it, but THIS ONE.
    omg, i felt that to another level, AMAZINGLY said
    i Love it


    5 months ago