it's hard for two people to grow and change at the same rate, and yes, everyone will learn that the hard way.
this hold she has over my heart / refuses to let go, like her / my heart clings to our past / disloyalty lurks in the background / did i create it? / or has this hesitation been here all along? / i need to stop pretending i know what i want / she thinks i've changed / i say you mean you haven't?
you may see an unbreakable future with someone, but i will tell you this vision will be split apart multiple times before you find the one you're meant for.
she sows the seeds of distrust / plants them in her own mind / without so much as a memo / was it that hard to let me know? / i don't need a knife in my back / to know what betrayal is / shifty eyes and dodged calls always / speak for themselves / we may change / but what we have never will / ... so at what point do we stop lying to ourselves?
you weren't put on this earth to suffer at the hands of people you love, but unfortunately, you will.
i yell at her, voice hoarse / hurt occupies itself in my mind / she'll call and explain soon, she promises / she drops meagre scraps of lackluster happiness in my lap / i fall for it every time, it's a gift she bestows / my honour to receive / so i say okay, i can wait / my pride shakes its head at me from a distance / humiliation welcomes me back / like an old friend, she walks away anyway / our growth chart halts itself, sensing a shift in our universe / all clear: universe proceeds to implode / what's the dissolution of a friendship / without the end of the world?
there's no promise the universe can't undo, no end goal that will look the same once time is done messing with it.
nothing stays the same / and all that will matter is acceptance / because people will come and go, / you will be pushed around from place to place / and your heart will never be the same / it will take a lot for you to realise that that's okay / don't we spend our whole lives trying to figure out life?
accept that change will be the only constant in your life, and laugh at the irony of it.
listen, i don't completely know what this is. realised that I'm a lot older than most of the people here despite being fairly new so here's what my bastard brain came up with. is this very cynical? yes, and also very driven by bitterness. don't take the title too seriously, this is more of me venting than actual solid advice. best i can give you: make good choices, and stay safe kids.