crow_e

United States

23 neurotic crows in a recycled flesh suit
he/him || 17 || intp-t || lgbtq+
prosaic poet & sci-fantasy fiction writer
community ambassador alum [summer 2020]
published in wtw review issue 2.2
standing in solidarity with those angry

Message from Writer

active? nah. still around sometimes though

deadname

June 15, 2020

FREE WRITING

15

you thought it’d be more in your face, but 
it feels more peripheral -
your parents don’t yell for you across the house anymore, 
your sister has stopped mangling it into nicknames that used to feel like needles under your skin,
you and your family have the kind of almost-ESP that people do when they’re close:  
names don’t have to be said, you know exactly who’s talking to who. 
so it is easy to forget that fiddly
little series of letters 
that can flip you sideways without warning. 


until it isn’t so easy. 
you have to enter it when you’re filling out online forms to be paid
for a job you’ll be quitting tomorrow.
the process frustrates you
[for more than one reason,
it alone is making you almost glad to leave now]. 
you set it aside, 
go back to your room and your eyes fall 
on a library card,
buried under books and paper birds and Christmas-themed candy. 
only the name on it is visible.

you wonder if you’re being taunted.
not exactly sure what this is, other than a product of my ever-increasing anxiety, but i shall lay it on the chopping block for your inspection 

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5 Comments
  • Karma's_Coming

    I’m speechless. Your poems are spoken with such clarity and yet they still hold traces of mystery. They’re gorgeous. So I shall be printing this as well and it will go on my poetry wall.


    3 months ago
  • aosora

    you passed the chopping block before i even got to the second stanza. well done!


    6 months ago
  • Wicked!

    This is so eloquently written! I hope you feel better soon. If you ever need to vent or just talk to someone, you can always talk to me!


    6 months ago
  • inanutshell

    'you wonder if you’re being taunted' honestly broke my heart. i'm so sorry you have to go through it; i'm in no position to judge or comment on your experience, but i sincerely hope this feeling won't be forever. wishing you nothing but good things ahead <3


    6 months ago
  • sunny.v

    “ go back to your room and your eyes fall / on a library card, / buried under books and paper birds and Christmas-themed candy.” wow. this was so wonderfully poignant, and to be truthful, i feel as if i’m much under qualified to compliment it. you’ve passed the chopping block with flying colors.


    6 months ago