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I am a musician; a lyricist; a writer.
I make art, because what else is there to do?
I am loud, and quiet, and everywhere in between.

Nolite te bastardes carborundorum

Message to Readers

Sometimes, it helps just to write it out. :)


June 4, 2020


I think of myself as a kind person. Smart. Persevering. Someone who genuinely cares about others, who loves despite flaws. I know that sounds conceited, but... despite all my faults, it's truly how I see myself.

My greatest fear, though... my greatest fear is not being enough.

Enough is a funny word, isn't it? What does it mean, anyway? That we've satisfied ourselves? Others?

To me, it's synonymous to remembered. I need to do enough—I need to be enough, to be remembered. To know that I've mattered in the lives of people, teachers, friends, that I've left behind me. Those that only came into my life in passing, but impacted my life. I want to know that I've impacted theirs.

I don't want to be forgotten.

Forgotten means that I haven't done enough to matter; that I haven't given enough. It means that I'm not enough.

And that's what scares me. God, it scares me more than anything I've ever known.


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  • Finnispace9

    I loved this piece! It really captures something so human and asks the questions so many of us ask and fear the answers to.

    about 2 months ago
  • joella

    i really felt this. something i struggle a lot with too.

    9 months ago
  • aftergløw [#words]

    You won't be forgotten, you're more than enough! <3

    9 months ago
  • doodleninja

    let it all out, that's why I love writing, cos I can VENT. XD
    and I can completely relate to you on this one, we can never be satisfied, we can never be enough. It's tough, but it's the truth.

    9 months ago