Madeline Harper

United Kingdom

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Don’t Shove It In My Face #proud

June 1, 2020

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You can be gay, but 
don’t
shove it in my face.

My eyes, downcast, couldn’t
meet my mother’s in the defiant stare
I’d always imagined, instead slumping
and signing in defeat
as my lips re-sealed.

Like a sparrow, I stood alone,
extending my feathers and almost
daring to combat the wind
only to retreat back to my nest,
frightened and silent.

I know in my heart of hearts
that what she really means is
I won’t disown you, but 
you better keep any future girlfriends
off my strait-laced property.

I just don’t fit. My vibrancy is too blinding
for my mother’s black and white photographs,
my smile too fake and too exaggerated.
The monochromatic life was never a life
I wanted to be painted into.

It wasn’t telling her
that was the hard part.
I’d seen myself rehearse the lines
in the bathroom mirror too many times.
It was the inevitability of her disgust I was afraid of.

My whole life has been farcical,
a pantomime of heterosexuality.
I’ve worn so many masks
I’m not sure where the act ends
and my true face begins. 

It’s time for a new costume, a different role.
My head rises, stormy silver eyes
drawing my mother’s attention like
a magnet. Lips unsealing,
my inner wings spread wide.

She better prepare for
an army of proud soldiers to
march over her prejudice, trampling it dead
and deflating her homophobic insults
with a million rainbow flags.

I am gay, and I’m proud, and
I’ll shove it in your face
as much as I damn well please.

 
Prompt 2 for Sadiez’s competition, dedicated to all the people who had the ‘don’t shove it in my face’ comment, basically saying they don’t want to see any signs of your sexuality if it’s not straight. We have every right to flaunt our newfound pride just like straight people can!

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5 Comments
  • thelostave

    AMAZING!!!


    6 months ago
  • Sadiez

    This is brilliant! Thanks so much for entering my competition! Happy pride!


    6 months ago
  • Karma's_Coming

    Happy Pride!


    6 months ago
  • sunny.v

    aw, happy pride. we can be sad wlw girls together <3


    6 months ago
  • mia_:)

    YES!!!! Your last stanza literally made me gasp and jump with joy a little in my seat! I love your use of the words "inner wings" and "I've worn so many masks / I'm not sure where the act ends and my true face begins" is just stunning! This is amazing! Also, I looked in your profile and just realized you're a fellow flute player too! *fist bump* :D <3


    6 months ago