Anne Blackwood

United States

16
Christian
Theatre kid
Singer (soprano)
Poet
Twin (fraternal)
Spoonie
Disfusive
Highly Sensitive Person
Living oxymoron
Kindness Krusader: Blueberry cotton candy
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message to Readers

Republishing because moody teenagerness

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June 9, 2020

FREE WRITING

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i feel numb.
which is similar to not feeling at all
the difference is the trace of pain,
of longing for vibrance.

the worst part is,
i can't even blame it on quarantine.
because today, i wasn't alone.
i went to church,
friends biked over to my house.

yet it doesn't stop this ghost
from coming back, reminding me
of when she was my constant companion.

sleepy from the nausea medicine
that's a prescription for someone else,
and i'm rambling because i'm sick.
sick of listless days
and sick of this weak body.

i am not at home in this exterior.
inside, i am running, i am dancing.

and this poem wasn't even supposed to be about
this unnamed thing.
but is the disease any more mysterious
than the wave of passiveness
that i find harder to fight?

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9 Comments
  • V-Rose

    Chapter 8 Of Death's Tales is written! Here's the link:
    https://writetheworld.com/groups/1/shared/172622/version/341694


    6 months ago
  • outoftheblue

    I really hope you feel better, Anne <3


    6 months ago
  • A Rose

    That third stanza shines.


    6 months ago
  • happy butterfly

    Awww stay strong and I hope you'll feel better <3<3


    6 months ago
  • Emi

    Aw, man, I hope you feel better! Praying for you; you are so strong through this.
    Isaiah 41:10


    6 months ago
  • mia_:)

    Totally agree with everyone! You're strong and we're here for you! Much love! <3<3 Also, what a piece! You really made it relatable and also just plain fabulous! Great job! I hope you feel better! <3<3


    6 months ago
  • Tushar Mandhan

    <3 you're stronger than anything, remember!


    6 months ago
  • sunny.v

    i agree with chrys. whatever you are going through, i hope with all my heart that you will get through it smoothly. your piece and the “wave of passiveness” line gave a totally understandable tone, but just know that you are strong! from what you’ve written about your experiences, you’re one heck of a fighter. i Hope the future treats you well. much love and much prayers, Anne <3


    6 months ago
  • chrysanthemums&ink

    i hope you feel better after writing this. <3. i think you expressed your feelings of stagnation poignantly and it was able to be felt through every word you said. you're a brilliant writer :).
    even if you're feeling like you aren't going anywhere, it's ok :). you're not stuck in one place, you're just taking a break. tomorrow will still come.
    i hope the next decision you make brings you happiness. <3<3


    6 months ago