she/her (tme)

if we were both frogs would you sit on a lily pad with me

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the lover's choice

May 29, 2020


"Teach me to paint."

Marianne frowns at her, eyes bright, and Héloïse struggles to breathe through the warmth in her chest. "What?"

"Teach me to paint." 


Héloïse shrugs, enjoying the way Marianne's eyes cling to the lines of her shoulders. "Why not?"

Marianne guides her hand over the paper, voice soft as she explains line and shape, tendons flexing in her fine-boned wrists. Héloïse is helpless in the face of such beauty, longs to kiss those wrists and hold those hands, but she dares not move. She has always been good at destroying pretty things.

She stares at her portrait later, the pale skin and deep eyes, a mouth like a prayer. Is this what Marianne sees, from behind her canvas?

"How do you do it?" She asks, later, when they're curled into each other, warm in the night.

"I only paint what I see."

She flushes, "We see very different things."

"I think you aren't looking hard enough."

Héloïse scoffs, "I think I haven't looked at anything at all."

"You looked at me."

"You're the only thing worth looking at in this damned place."

Marianne laughs, then, tracing down her arms. "Burnt umber and Naples rose."


"That's what I use to paint you. Burnt umber and Naples rose."

"And here," she says, tapping the peak of her clavicle, "a hint of zinc white."

Héloïse smiles as Marianne touches her eyelids, "Cerulean blue."

A kiss, soft on her lips, "And just a dab of permanent rose."
yes, this is from portrait of a lady on fire, i watched it yesterday at 2 am and i'm in love. 



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  • FizzyBaguette

    replying: Thanks so much! I look forward to watching it :)
    It's nice to finally somewhere I can watch movies without squirming in discomfort at the ads.

    5 months ago
  • FizzyBaguette

    I just read the synopsis of the film and it sounds amazing. Any chance you have a link?

    5 months ago
  • FizzyBaguette

    (But seriously, this is exquisite)

    5 months ago
  • FizzyBaguette

    Gayyyyyyyyy *dances in delight*

    5 months ago
  • rainandsonder

    wow, i love this! i haven't seen portrait of a lady on fire yet, although i've been meaning to for a while. i especially love that last exchange, about the paint colors, that was so heartwarming.

    5 months ago
  • sunny.v

    i wrote about you in my appreciation post!:

    6 months ago
  • sunny.v

    oh wow, the tension between them at the beginning is so palpable. your dialogue is so smooth and realistic also! this was a pleasure to read *clutches heart* women....

    6 months ago
  • inanutshell

    oh wow this was written beautifully. love the subtlety in the beginning & how it progresses, really love this. also from your footnotes, is that movie any good? just googled it & i'm honestly intrigued.

    6 months ago