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ᴅᴏɴ'ᴛ ᴡᴏʀʀʏ 'ʙᴏᴜᴛ ᴛᴏᴍᴏʀʀᴏᴡ ᴀɴʏᴍᴏʀᴇ.

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i wanted to write a sort of toxic relationship that goes both ways. it's unique but less uncommon that i probably think it is.

it goes both ways: mutualism

May 13, 2020


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you flick my bottom lip with those 
porcupine nails of yours 
i open my mouth wider
as you shove your words in 

even my bed smells like nosebleed now
with your cold breath moistening my nape 
your limbs splayed across the sheets, asleep 
i long to pick you apart, sweetheart  

tuck a few bills into your collarbone 
roll out of the bed 
i turn the temperature a few degrees down 
just the way you hate it

bored with my lover 
all that's in my brain is you 
with your wilted rose perfume
and sinful smile

your teeth graze my ear and bite
you never know when to take it easy
i lick the scratches you left behind 
on my heart 

your candy lips purse as i hand you the money again 
thank you for your time 
never goes farther than that
and that's how i like it 

yesterday you bent my wrist towards my forearm
like a beast, it hurts good 
i bandage it with my own teeth this morning
this isn't the first part of my body that's swelled because of you

there are tears running down my cheeks 
god it hurts
stay, honey sweet
please stay 

how long has it been? 
maybe a few months
a year? 
for some reason you look hurt 

i guess you found out about the other one 
it was nothing in the first place though 
you're enraged haha 
my body hurts because of you and that's your proof? 

you say things like: "tell that to your broken arm" 
that broken arm will heal, like my wrist, my chest, and my lips
you are but a money shaped temporary tattoo
on my heart cavity 

when you came to me that one
wanting a few bills in your pocket
we agreed okay, we agreed
so don't be looking like i broke your heart

no i don't belong to you 
and you don't belong to me either 
simply a symbiotic relationship 
clownfish—me—sea anemone—you 

hug me close to your chest 
and pretend like we're alright 
why is your body so cold? 
why are your eyes so cold?  

use me to make you happy 
use you to make me happy 
this sure ain't love, darling 
but it can't be called hate either

i need you to 
stay by my side 
as simple as that, this toxic waste label 
it's mutualism 


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  • Dmoral

    i came back looking for this piece & i absolutely love it omg!!

    5 months ago
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  • joella

    your work deserves more recognition. this is amazing!

    7 months ago
  • musiphant

    This ROCKS! This is seriously cool and I really enjoyed reading it and you did a good job describing a toxic relationship it’s seriously AMAZING

    7 months ago