joella

Israel

she/her | high school | wasian | enfp

i sip inked tea in someone else's garden

(formerly ★ white mountains ★)

Message to Readers

this is my entry for prompt 5 of Boogie With Stu's contest- go check it out! (https://bit.ly/2WqIqsj)
like most of my writing, this is completely unedited, so any any feedback is welcome and appreciated :)

we stay the same because my heart bleeds with nostalgia | #creativitytime5

May 10, 2020

FREE WRITING

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right now i'm sitting on the stubbly closet carpet
cracked skin/ bleeding fingers/ sifting through the photographs
we were young once, you know
        i'm not hiding, i tell myself, breath in and out, count to ten
        my heart hurts. i cry
        s i l e n t l y
on glossy paper my hair catches /the sun
(our past selves glow at golden hour)
now it hangs in oily strands around my face (i won't
call it haggard, no, this is just a rough patch,)
        t h a t' s   a l l 
        i'm afraid to say it's real, this black enveloping us,
        the chasm growing wider each day we stay this way
        it's easier to bury myself up to the neck /in memories
(we were happy once, you know)
and the moments of doubt are when i sit in the dark 
b u t 
then your gentle touch brushing my skin,
eyes a confused hazel (your beauty
is cliche, I know, so is this story, so it's inevitable ending)
catch the dim evening light, twin moons reflected in your gaze
        and it's easier /not to think
        about how different this used to be
        i don't know if it's love anymore but
        you know i'm terrified of change
if you tell me to leave
look me in the eye (it'll hurt, i know it will)
that'll be the only way
i' l l   g o 

        
July by Noah Cyrus
 

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12 Comments
  • Madelyn (Carolina Girl)

    "twin moons reflected in your gaze" I love that line. Ahhhh this is amazing. You are so gifted.


    7 months ago
  • Deleted User

    Thanks for entering the bracket challenge!


    7 months ago
  • Deleted User

    Replying- Here's your digital *oreo* :)


    7 months ago
  • ElsaRee

    This is soooo lovely! Simply AWESOME!


    7 months ago
  • mia_:)

    Beautiful piece! In terms of the writing streak, I totally don't remember the word limit, but I also didn't read the instructions :P. Haha, thanks for bringing that to my attention! I do best when I have more words to work with, so I think I'll bend that rule (I don't do it for the badges anyway). Thanks for bringing it to my attention!!!


    7 months ago
  • Chloe :) <3

    Thanks for the comment!! This was a beautiful piece :)


    7 months ago
  • Dmoral

    Replying: @WhiteMountains
    for sure. we're definitely WTW friends now, let's just make that official.


    7 months ago
  • Dmoral

    Replying: @WhiteMountains
    This is Us!!!!!! YES! THAT'S ONE OF MY FAVORITES!!!! EEEK! GIRL, I FREAKIN' LOVE THAT SONG.
    i realllllllly like "Team" and "Lately" too though, ugh, so good. and i'll definitely take a listen to that song.


    7 months ago
  • Klaiir

    I had to listen to the song while reading this. it's beautiful<3


    7 months ago
  • joella

    ughhh just found a typo (hate when this happens! this is why I should edit my writing); the 10th line from the bottom should say "so IS it's inevitable ending"


    7 months ago
  • Dmoral

    lovely piece! definitely going in my pile of favorites.

    "sifting through the photographs / we were young once, you know / i'm not hiding,"
    there it is, nostalgia and sorrow in something to relatable-i love it.

    "i'm afraid to say it's real"
    yes yes yes.

    "i don't know if it's love anymore but / you know i'm terrified of change / if you tell me to leave / look me in the eye (it'll hurt, i know it will) / that'll be the only way"
    favorite lines, gosh this pulls at the heartstrings.

    also, Noah Cyrus? yes, girl. i've recently been exposed to her and i freakin' love her. personally, though, i love her duets with other artists more than i think just her singing. but like, what are some other songs of her you like?


    7 months ago
  • Charisse Marison

    Wow. Just...wow. Amazing job!


    7 months ago