A Certain Type of Decisive

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Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls, please put on your recital clothes and call time is five o'clock. The show? You! Performing a play calling "Sitting in Chairs for Three Hours." The audience will be made up entirely of ballet dancers, performing a dance from the seats below.

Haunted

April 27, 2020

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I don't believe in ghosts
But I like the ideas because I'm
-sentimental-
And it makes for a good story but
I feel like I have to choose between
Writing everything that happened or everything that
-didn't-
And I guess I believe in God
But I don't know if I like the idea because it makes
For a good story maybe
If no one used language for God that is used for other things he would seem more
-holy-
People are just made of meat and that's why
I don't believe in ghosts I know that
Eyes deceive and skin deceives and memories make
For a good story and even if
You're a good person you can't help it because we're chemicals and chemicals make
-mistakes-
And I'm just skin I'm just
Skin with memories of things that might never have happened because so many
people have been betrayed by the thing most loyal to them
Has my mind deceived me or God or is it my skin and how
Can I trust my memories?
Can I trust my own 
-flesh?-
I'd like to say I don't believe in ghosts but lying
Is sinful and I do it's so obvious that I do because if I didn't it would be
So much easier to believe in God if I wasn't so 
-haunted-
By the attachments each word has I
Can't read scripture because I already have
A father and the feudal system is gone there are no more
Lords and what is a savior except a complex I probably have
And I want to make my mother proud and forget it and have faith but what
Can I say? I'm 
-sentimental-

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1 Comment
  • Emi

    This is really sad and beautiful at the same time! Actually, I find the Bible to be very sentimental and poetic. The Psalms are very pretty poems, and Song of Solomon is so romantic.


    7 months ago