Anne Blackwood

United States

16
Christian
Theatre kid
Singer (soprano)
Poet
Twin (fraternal)
Spoonie
Disfusive
Highly Sensitive Person
Living oxymoron
Kindness Krusader: Blueberry cotton candy
XXFJ, Melancholic-Sanguine, ambivert

Joined 1/16/20

Message to Readers

I know this is kinda sloppy; I've never written anything like this before. If anyone can help make it communicate better, that would be much appreciated.

#SelfHateSelfLove - flat-chest girl - Prompt #3 - First entry

March 17, 2020

FREE WRITING

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I don't look at fashion magazines
I mean, who reads real magazines anymore?
But I do look around
And I see pretty painted everywhere
Smiles and busts and perfect

You know those sweet guys
Who make the videos telling girls not to change themselves
Well they still turn right around and date that magic girl
Who is thin but still shaped like an hourglass
Or they went and got a plus size girl
Because curves are much more desirable than a stick

Don't get me wrong; I know I'm beautiful
I do
It can be really hard to believe that though
I stand strong and remind myself
That someone will recognize my worth

But what if I am shallow and
Sometimes want someone to like me
And not in spite of this faulty capsule that surrounds my heart
Sometimes want someone to see me and say
"Wow, she's gorgeous."

Because I'm not
My girl friends can try to convince me otherwise
But no one really thinks it of me
They say I am the ideal size and then leave out the part
Where my jean size isn't the problem
I guess the sooner I accept it
The happier I'll be
However, there isn't an elegant way to say
It's not that simple
I hold no resentment against curvy girls. This is just me finally admitting that I'm not always happy with the way I look.

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5 Comments
  • Wicked!

    It's like when some of my friends tell me that I'm actually lucky, it's kind of demeaning and hurtful too, but then also true.


    12 months ago
  • Wicked!

    To be honest, I accepted my flat chested-ness by realizing that it's actually more convenient than like the opposite, you know?


    12 months ago
  • jun lei

    HA i'm described as curvy and i DESPISE it lmao.


    12 months ago
  • V-Rose

    I am kind of the opposite. I am curvy and a lot of the time I hate it. But oh well, there's not a lot we can do about it other than accept ourselves for who we are.


    12 months ago
  • joella

    you say this piece is "kinda sloppy", but its raw, unfiltered nature is what makes it so compelling. really beautiful <3


    12 months ago