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Message to Readers

i still deny it ;) and you cant make me stop

I've Always Denied It

November 1, 2019


I've always denied it


I can't deny it even to myself

As a raccoon-tail hat twirls throughout the classroom air

And one with skinny jeans and a blue hoodie

Who wears a construction hat for no other reason

Than because he can

I sit at my computer 

Accidentally watching you

Later, when I have focused on my music

A construction hat is fitted safely on my head

And you patter a rhythm on it

And smile and walk away

I smile too

I keep it

And when it's almost time

Another rhythm drums on the hat

Another pair of smiles

And you walk away

I pat the hat on my head softly and pause my music

I get up as a ringing echoes through my world

Inside and out

I reluctantly reach to my head

I set the construction hat on the table and stare at it

Smiling almost sadly

Although I don't necessarily know why

It's hard to leave your "gift" behind

I still can't wait until I can wear it again

And I know what's going on

But I still won't even admit it to myself

I've always denied it, no need to stop now



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  • fooshissecretlyacat_

    @RubyRedDreams I couldn't have said it better

    about 1 year ago
  • CreativeAngel

    The smile and the thought that I may or may not have a similar situation..
    NUH uh

    about 1 year ago
  • RubyRedDreams

    you've got a cruuuuush haha

    about 1 year ago
  • fooshissecretlyacat_

    I have the strong urge to be like "you've got a crush na na na na poo poo" like a 5 year old, but this really does remind me of something. Something that makes me smile.

    about 1 year ago
  • Rewrite_The_Stars


    oof sorry that was actually just really cute XD

    about 1 year ago