A Certain Type of Decisive

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There are plenty of fish in the ocean, but I'm trying to keep all of them at bay- At least until the coast is clear. After that? Well, we'll sea.

Of Sound Mind

January 5, 2020


I can hear the echoes of movement in my house because
It is the oldest house on the block
It creaks
My sister is singing more than she used to
Because she is going to audition for her school's musical and can't decide on a song

The sound of rushing water is good because it means the world
is changing
For a moment our surrounding will never be quite the same
Because I turned on my kitchen sink
And maybe I just like the sense of control it gives me
My ears sometimes delude me with voices I know saying my name
Are you saying my name? 
Who's knocking on the bathroom door like the house is burning down?
Who's at the door?
Who's out there?

Our piano is old but not grand and she is vaguely out of tune
But all in the same way so you can't really tell
Sometimes I'll play chords on it like I know what I'm doing but I don't
My siblings are sniffling through the cold
weather but also the colds we all have but ignore
Maybe it's allergies

Why do you change the way you laugh, baby cousin?
What has changed from one knock-knock joke to the next?
Can a toddler really learn so fast that even when you don't feel like laughing
you fake it just to make the rest of the room laugh with you?

I like to talk just to hear my own voice,
but I like yours more, so talk with me
I like to write just to hear the sound of keys validating the thoughts I have
It means they are worth the effort to put into words
I like the sound of the shower in my house because it's running water and sometimes the white floor creaks
Because even though the shower is new
It's still the oldest house on the 


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  • Anne Blackwood

    "My sister is singing more than she used to
    Because she is going to audition for her school's musical and can't decide on a song"

    Well if that ain't me

    6 months ago
  • Loser

    I love the description of this house. You describe not only the house but the people inside, who bring life to the house.

    10 months ago