Hand me your daggers of frustration,
I'll slice myself open and let my guts spill upon the page, just for you.
You can dive in like wolves and gorge yourselves, numbing your minds upon the words splattered upon the page.
I am nothing.
I am an outlet for you, an escape.
Your blood lust subsides, and your humanity returns.
I only wish I was enough,
Truly up to standard.
Could I ever truly be a master, enough to be there for a reader?
I find myself lost in question pondering my own ability.
I talk great talk, but that's all it is.
An attempt to talk my daydreams into reality, to add color to the beige page.
All I sound is arrogant.
*Sigh*
Let's try again...
You are like sweet peaches and melodies.
You let my nonsensical rambling wash over you like a wave lapping at the beaches sandy shores.
Your ears never grow tired of my scratchy voice jumping from rabbit hole to rabbit hole.
I know I love you, yet my mind won't ever let me believe the same from you.
I know I'm silly, but please, remind me, every day.
Does your love ever grow dull?
Tired?
I talk a lot, but you know I adore listening.
You've seen and heard all my most ridiculous thoughts, angers and insecurities.
Does that make one harder or easier to love?
No one ever taught me how to love myself right, so I don't know how to be loved right.
I hope I love you right.
This concept of love.
I'm in love with it.
From daggers and knives to songs and beaches, I'll do anything for this stupid concept.
Love.
Here we have it, the perfect example of rabbit holes.
From gore and arrogance to tripping over my own heels in love.
But it's never romance. Never.
Just the simple love and caring for one another, yet another concept that requires more practice.
I'm afraid I've lost you along this path I've made.
Rabbit hole to rabbit hole my mind wanders all to quick.
You must forgive me.
It's almost as if each stanza is its own one liner.
It's own story, but I haven't got enough time to explore it all too deeply yet, because I'm running fro one rabbit hole to another.
Be quick or you'll get left behind.
