sunflower_queen

United States

“And the Ghosts
they own everything”

Message from Writer

Uh hi, I'm Anthia. I am a writer by nature, but I decided to do something with the pieces I create. I also play the guitar, and I write songs/raps as well, but this WTW account is mainly focused on more traditional styles. Anyway, I'm just a kid trying to figure out my life, but I hope you will come along on the ride with me.

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July 28, 2019

FREE WRITING

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I thought it was impossible
I have finally found the boy, excuse me
The man of my dreams
But of course something had to come and ruin it.

See my parents have already begun to compare us
They show me your accomplishments
(After you've shown them to me of course.)
And they don't say it out loud
But I can see it in their eyes
They don't believe in me anymore
They believe in you.

So I bust my ass trying to prove myself
Trying to make them proud
But they will always be prouder of you
Their future son in law
And there is nothing I can do about it.

I finally seem to remember, you're almost a whole year older than me
It didn't feel like that until just now
For a while, it felt like we were on the same team
Now it just feels like we are competitors
And I don't want to know who's gonna win.

The worst part is, you picked up all these common hobbies to get closer to me
But I fear they might just drive us apart
And there's nothing I can do about it
We are just too alike.

A lot of the times when I'm helping you with your monsters?
I'm dealing with the very same ones
(No help for me of course.)

I see you crying and it breaks my heart
Because deep down I know
I'm crying about the same thing
And no one knows.

No one knows about my pain
No one knows about your pain either
Well, no one 
Except for me
I know.

So I try to put on a mask of strength 
But its so close to cracking;
I'm so close to cracking
And I don't think you even notice
But I'm so concerned with you
I can barely bring myself to ask for help with my own problems.

But God forbid I do ask my parents for help anyway
I would just get the look of disappointment
(They almost manage to hide it.)
And the words that are supposed to comfort me
But instead make me feel even more alone.

The worst part is that you were like me before
You used to put on the same mask
You had it on the day I met you
I guess I made you feel comfortable enough to take it off
I just want someone to do the same for me.

I know you're trying to help me feel better
In your own way of course.
You kiss me until I can't breathe
You try to pour all of the love and happiness I've given you into each and every one
(But it doesn't quite work.)

I know I'm trying to help you feel better
In my own way of course.
I let you talk until you run out of words
I try to pour all of my love and care for you into each and every response
(But it doesn't quite work.)

At the end of the day, we both fail.
We are both left hurting.
And there is nothing I can do about it;
We are just too alike.

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