ATTRACTED TO THE DARKNESS

I felt sad and petty,
Then miserable and dumb.
It started to turn to empty.
And then it was numb.

I felt all at once,
Then nothing at all.
I cared too much for everyone,
Then wasn't even bothered to call.

I didn't ask for help
And only got worse.
I felt more distant,
But somehow more at home.

Everyone else
is searching for the lightness.
But truth is:
I'm blinded by the brightness.