Harlow

United States

A human that does stuff with words among other humans who do other stuff with words

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Message to Readers

Sorry it’s sad. I’m sad. It’s a happy day, all cloudy and gray and rainy. The rain smells nice. I’m rambling. Sorry. Um..... enjoy?

Will #Lossislife

May 11, 2019

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Memory: I was 11 and I started to realize everything that was wrong with me. I wasn’t the right weight or sexuality or height or level of development and it really wore me down. I lost something really important that year: my will to live. 

Winter was new,
the grass smothered in frost 
and dew that had a calming scent. 
I needed something calming. 

I sat in bed that day,
crying and wondering. 
I walked over to my mirror
and spat at it. 
The mirror lies. 

I looked at my phone
Makayla 7 Missed Calls. 
Makayla deserved better than me
because
I am nothing
and no one would care 
if maybe I just weren’t here. 

I stared in the mirror 
and snatched a Sharpie
of my dresser. 
Fat ass
Pig
Worthless
Dyke. 

I stared at my mirror
now full of truths
that the monsters had told me
in my years. 

I threw my phone at the mirror
and it shattered
and I shattered
and I sat 
encircled by graffitied shards
crying 
and realizing that 
I am nothing. 
 

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2 Comments
  • Plastictreeboi

    You are not worthless. you deserve to be here. your not fat or a pig, even if you were fat it doesn't matter. Your body doesn't make you you, your body isn't the reason your here. you are smart and funny and believe it or not you're actually pretty nice. You are NOT nothing.


    12 months ago
  • mason wong

    This is a very good poem!!!!!!!!!


    over 1 year ago