Vannah

United States

Y'know, I really hope I can pull off the cool mysterious deep writer persona. That'd be sick.

Message to Readers

Lol sorry I've been going through and making sure only one version of each of my poems are published instead of a million of the same poem, just different drafts, so now I keep editing my old ones. Anyways, if you see this, enjoy it. I always post so late at night no ones on lol.

A Great Friend

January 28, 2020

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Do these thoughts belong to me or not?
Am I the torturer, or the tortured? 

All these self inflicted jabs, doubts and fears. 
It suffocates me and cuts off everyone else. 

I am a surface level person.
Friend.
I float at the top because if I sink any further I will drown. 

All my promises have been broken.
I let myself and those around me down.
When I reached rock bottom, I told myself the only place left to go was up.
It doesn't quite feel that way. 
I just ended up handing myself a shovel.

I've explored the deep dark depths.
Adventure is out there,
But it's long and treacherous journey- struggle.
How am I still standing?
I should still be lost, wandering around my self made labyrinth. 

I feel like a weak, pathetic coward.
But I tell others fighting this same fight that they're strong because they keep going.
Does that make me a liar, or just hypocrite?

Maybe I'm right though...
Maybe. 

The truth is to hard. 
Whether I'm right or wrong.

It's so, so heavy. 

 

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