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Grape Leaves

May 19, 2019

“What is that?” I hear a girl from across the table ask. I look over to find that she is looking at me, “It smells gross.”
I go to respond when someone else seems to take interest in my lunch too.
“Yeah, what is that?” They ask with a disgusted face.
I look at them in partial confusion. It’s my first day of kindergarten, sitting in my assigned lunch seat. How do they not know what grape leaves are?
“They’re grape leaves.” I answer back to the first girl with a somewhat forced smile.
“Oh, she says, “they look like turds.”

I went home that afternoon to tell my parents about my first day of school, especially lunch. I told them how embarrassed I was to eat after what that girl had said. I mean who would want to continue eating something that was declared a turd in front of your entire class? I asked them why no one knew what a grape leaf was, to find that apparently not everyone ate the same things as me. At age 6, I was shocked. I simply thought that everyone in my kindergarten class ate what I ate. I knew I was Arab, but at the time that only meant that my great-grandparents came from some country that I couldn’t find on a map. As I got older, I continued to learn more about how my family wasn’t exactly like those at my school. I learned that no one at my school ate kibbeh, a Lebanese dish of ground beef, lamb, and onions rolled into balls or baked in a pan, sfiha, also called meat pies that had ground beef and lamb encased by a light, fluffy homemade bread, or my personal favorite, grape leaves.

After elementary school I moved to a new public junior high, and for the most-part, comments about what I ate stopped. I did get the occasional comments about how my house always smelled like garlic, or how my food looked (and if they actually had the courage to try it), tasted weird.  But what started to happen was that I heard older kids saying things about how Arabs were terrorists, often pronouncing the word “Arab” incorrectly. Of course none of those kids said anything directly to me, as many people did not know my family came from Syria and Lebanon.

Once I was in high school, I started to learn how to make some of my favorite foods, like grape leaves. And this is when I would learn the most about my family. Every time my family had a party, my cousins, aunts, uncles, and grandparents would all come, so my parents would make grape leaves. This was a family affair because these dishes usually took most of the day to make. And I have a HUGE family. So we would begin the long journey of preparing our famous grape leaves. We called them famous because everyone in my family said that my parents made them best.

We would begin by driving to a store in Lansing, where my entire family got all their Middle Eastern food needs. Right when you walked through the door you were hit in the face with a hundred different smells. Spices were held in containers, similar to candy in a candy store, with a little scooper on a coiled plastic cord attached to the side. Fingers; a Middle Eastern dessert, were also sold in trays near the front, while lamb and beef were sold in the back.

After we got our ingredients we went home and immediately opened the jars. As we grabbed the dripping grape leaves out and flopped them down onto the freshly wiped counter, my mom would begin speaking. She would begin with how my great-grandparents came to Kalamazoo, Michigan from Syria and Lebanon. How their children never learned Arabic because her grandparents likely felt isolated from their community, where everyone spoke English. She would tell us that our last name was actually changed to sound more American, even though people still pronounced it wrong. As she talked, my siblings and I all listened as we filled the leaves with lamb, beef, rice, and the spices. You had to roll the meat and leaves perfectly, not too tightly or the leaves would rip, and the meat would spill out, and not too loosely or they would come undone. At this point my mom would be talking about the current state of Lebanon and Syria. How we would never get to go there because the once beautiful countries were now war-torn and dangerous. This always made my mom upset and for a moment she wouldn’t speak.

Finally, we would take the pans, overflown with the stacks of grape leaves, and stick them into the oven. As they were taken to the oven my siblings and I would watch. It was always a victory if one of the grape leaves didn’t roll over and plummet to the floor.

While the leaves baked my family would clean up the mess, do other chores around the house, play games, and talk. And once that was done… we would still be waiting for the grape leaves to finish cooking. So we would hang out for a while longer, and finally, once it was way past an appropriate time to eat dinner, we would sit down and load our plates with grape leaves and say grace.

And now every time I eat grape leaves, instead of thinking about what that girl said to me a few years ago at lunch, I think about my family. My big Arab family and my great-grandparent who preserved our recipes and much of my family’s history. My history. And all of the good times that my family had preparing and eating our favorite Middle Eastern foods.

But I was also thinking about how to get seconds before my siblings and cousins did.

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  • Saadia

    Thank you so much JCWriter!! I'm so glad you like my writing and love grape leaves! It's so interesting that we call them by different names and they are made differently. It would be so cool to try different ones someday!

    about 2 years ago
  • JCWriter

    OH MY GOODNESS I love grape leaves! I've probably had them a bit differently than the version you write about here––I had sort of a reversed experience in that I grew up in Central Asia even though I'm technically "American", and dolma (or grape leaves) is one of my family's favorite foods now. Reading this felt a little like finding a small piece of home. Beautifully written!

    about 2 years ago