Doktor Habit

United States of America


fades in and out of existing on this site
been on since 2017

i can and WILL speak my mind on things but i tend to lack restraint so let me know if i go too far

mostly moved to the prose under the same username

Message to Readers

just wanted to thank y'all for the feedback uwu
“you know how you let yourself think that everything will be all right if you can only get to a certain place or do a certain thing; but when you get there, you find it's not that simple.” - richard adams, watership down

The Mumbles of a Mindful Masquerading Madman

April 17, 2019


Although I've tried to open my eyes to look upon light
I find myself unable, and I find myself blind
And I find myself doubtful and find myself scared
And I find myself ambling and gambling for time

And though I've held close the "love of my life"
I find myself thinking that he isn't mine
And find myself blinking away pointless tears
And find myself drinking more bottles tonight

And though I've tried to still all the shakes
Of my hands made bleeding by bones that they break
I find myself staring, despairing in awe
As I'm paring raw flesh off of muscle

And though I've tried to silence the sobs
The unpleasant wailing that tears from my throat
I find myself shrieking like a wounded animal
Tears leaking and seeking a shoulder to land on

And though I've tried to stable my mind
To silence the torrents tearing from inside
I find myself falling and brawling with thoughts
And I swear I hear Hell itself calling my name

And though I've tried to pry out the fight
The bit of me claiming I'm not in the right
I find myself stumbling and fumbling about
And I find myself mumbling with words that aren't mine.


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