AtLeilaWriter

United States

"ˢᵗᵃʸ ᵈʳᵘⁿᵏ ᵒⁿ ʷʳⁱᵗⁱⁿᵍ ˢᵒ ʳᵉᵃˡⁱᵗʸ ᶜᵃⁿⁿᵒᵗ ᵈᵉˢᵗʳᵒʸ ʸᵒᵘ." ⁻ ᴿᵃʸ ᴮʳᵃᵈᵇᵘʳʸ
Hello all! Or rather y'all as we say down here in GA. I'm a 15 going on 16 aspiring writer who wants more experience. I can't wait to start writing regularly on here.

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Talents include: soccer, writing, violin, drawing, PROCRASTINATING, binge watching, crying, trying to convince myself I don't like my crushes, sucking at guitar, eating, being a mess, cramming for AP, talking, being sarcastic, chewing gum too long, hoarding thin mints, not understanding pre-calc, being mildly depressed, reading comics, fracturing bones, catching food in my mouth, wanting to get my ears pierced, staring at cute people, having bad hair days, learning French, loving Tom Holland, quoting sci-fi, making dumb decisions, watching weird youtube videos, and writing 'deep' poetry

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Everyday Drowning

May 13, 2020

The sand beneath my toes pulls me closer to earth
She holds me tight against the waves that roll over my body
My head meets the surface and air rushes to replace water
My thoughts are cloudy like the gray, directionless sky
Cold water lapping in time with my strangled breaths
Drowned by the sounds of children swimming in low tide
Maybe if I hold on someone will come for me
I go down again, refusing to show the panic in my eyes
which are shut tightly in effort to fight off hopelessness
My mind slows down as I stop fighting against the tide
I surrender to the water who decides to keep me captive
    I'm drowning.

The reprimand of my teacher pulls me back to reality
She questions whether or not I understood what she has been saying
My head nods slowly as I rack my brain for an answer
My thoughts are blank like the paper in front of me
The hum of the AC guides my steady breaths
Which give tempo to the scat rhythm of pencils writing
Maybe if I keep trying it will come to me
I look down again, refusing to show the embarrassment in my eyes
downcast in effort to hide my feelings of hopelessness
My mind wanders again as I stop struggling to maintain focus
I surrender to the endless thoughts that rack my mind
    I'm drowning.

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