ghostlyglory

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trigger warning: descriptions of unhealthy relationship

when will i stop feeling like a forest fire? #escapril

April 6, 2019

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i remember you in purple 
                   leaking forward like fermenting bruises 
          it hurts but only because i poke with a pinky 
                   hurts only because years ago i decided pain was better than nothing that hurting in company 
               was better than sitting in a room alone 
this is the consequence of  
   always feeling  too much you told me 
              there is so much you can bear 
      and i believed you like i miss you—
                constant and aching and without reason
          when will i stop feeling like a      forest fire? 
it started when i loved you for the bend of your elbows 
        and when i remember you 
    i long for a taste i can only replicate in dreams 
               split oranges on my tongue and 
i have the thought of you for breakfast but 
                 you have always been sharper than citrus 
             when i loved you i loved the feeling of my ribs 
                    under your bare feet bone fragments
 scattered on wood floor 
               my body like dust to dust like ash to ash like 
        i was worth so little 
           and that must be what i miss 
there is so much i can bear but this ache is 
sharper than shame 
         this ache is an exhaustion of being 1 of millions 
           of women that are so tired 
                    i am so tired of feeling like a gas station on fire 
a volcano teetering on apocalypse  
         a bruise with fingers digging in 
when i think of you it washes  in purple  
             i remember a kiss 
                      but i will never forget the teeth. 


  
for escapril prompt day 6!! nostalgia

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3 Comments
  • EAurora

    This is so beautiful!


    over 1 year ago
  • loveletterstosappho

    i love the language and formatting and i especially love the lines " when i loved you i loved the feeling of my ribs/under your bare feet bone fragments/scattered on wood floor/my body like dust to dust like ash to ash like/i was worth so little" and of those lines my favorite is "my body like dust to dust like ash to ash like/i was worth so little" so so breathtaking and lovely


    over 1 year ago
  • justpeachy

    this is positively gorgeous ... like wow. i'm amazed by the imagery, the language, everything. phenomenal job!!


    over 1 year ago