Do you ever...
Do you ever just look at you reflection and wonder who the girl you're staring at is?
She moves like you, smiles like you, laughs like you.
She is you.
But when you look at her face, into her eyes...
She feels so far away.
It's almost like this girl you're watching is from an alternate universe, and when you look in the mirror you are checking up on how the other is fairing.
But that's dumb.
It couldn't be...
It's like my head is full of clouds and I must fight to keep from sinking into them and forgetting everyone.
Getting lost would be so easy,
But there are things to do!
Goals to make.
Does all that really matter?
I can just put my head down,
stare at the sky
and get lost.
For hours, days, maybe even years.
Time always slides by so slow.
No one will notice.
If I slip off, into these clouds this, stranger girl from the mirror and I could finally be one.
no more confusion.
I would no longer have days of feeling like the body with the brain in it, or the days feeling like the brain with the body around it.
Like she and I switch and take turns.
This strange disconnection that makes my head and my tummy hurt.
Constantly in a dream state, unable to wake up.
I feel sick.