First they told me I was a leader
Then they told me I was too pushy
Then that I let others push me around
Then that I was too harsh 
Then that I didn't know when to say stop
Then that I was too loud
Then that I should say what I think
Then that I needed to be kinder
Then that I let my kindness compromise my beliefs
Then that I was lying
Then that I didn't know what I...

First they told me I was a leader
Then they told me I was too pushy
Then that I let others push me around
Then that I was too harsh 
Then that I didn't know when to say stop
Then that I was too loud
Then that I should say what I think
Then that I needed to be kinder
Then that I let my kindness compromise my beliefs
Then that I was lying
Then that I didn't know what I...

When I succeed, it is simply luck
But when I fail, I don’t work hard enough

If I top the class, I am considered a nerd
But when I come last, well they think it’s absurd!

Because first I was told be loud
But when I am loud, I am quietened
And then I was told to be brave
But when I stand up, I am pushed down again

Yesterday I was dark, today I am light
Here I should...

First they said I was too much
then I was too little
I was too chatty and too boisterous
then the shy one in the middle
they said I was too smart
then too stupid to succeed here
too thin to be attractive
but skinny is the aim, dear
too female to speak my mind
too wild to be all girly
smiling too much for their liking
then considered surly
too serious to be flirtatious
then too funny to be...

You were right to leave.
I remember your rough hand so softly against my cheek.
Bending over on your tip toes.
Saying you'd be in touch ,only to never be seen again

You were the loud whisper in my ear.
Whistling deep as caramel.
That all the disasters are fine.
That the night isn't always bleak

You were crushing hope.
You reminded me that I too.
Can have your fiery golden chestnut hair.
If ill stop caring too much, and...

First they said I was smart 
Then they said I knew nothing 
Then they said I was a girl 
Then they said I was an "it" 
Then they said I wasn't special 
Then they said I wasn't normal 
Then she said I was a lesbo 
So I said she was a git 
Then they said I was ugly 
Then they asked me of sexuality 
Then they said I was boring 
Then they said I'd never fit
Then they called me...

first, I tried too hard
then, I found peace.
first, I kept up the façade
then, the smile became real.
first, I felt lonely
then, I felt content.
first, I was pushed away
then, I was drawn in.
then, I felt laughter
then, I felt true joy.

first, I went through hardship
then, I found myself.
 

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first you came in a set package, 
with a label and transaction slip--
your life was worth the same as everything else's--
because that's what you were--
identical. 

but then they called you a paradox and so you became one, 
bursting out of bubble wrap and cardboard, ...

first they said i was too fat,
then they said i was too thin,
then they told me to eat more,
then they told me i'd gained weight. 

and then they said i wasn't interested in anything,
then they said im too stubborn,
then they yelled i was too opinionated,
then they belittled me. 

and then they said i was too loud, 
then they said i was too bland, 
then they told me i spoke too much, 
then they told...

You say I'm not enough,
But yesterday I was "too much".
Apparently I laugh too loud,
But when I'm shy, you make me the center of the crowd.

I text you every day,
But yesterday, you asked me why I was staying away.
You say I'm greedy,
But when you ask for money, you get angry at me for calling you needy.

I try to be the best of me,
But you're only ever the worst of you. 

First they said be yourself

           Then they said I have to stop talking so much

First they said I have to enjoy my childhood while it lasts

               Then they said I have to act mature

First they said I can wear what I want

                            Then they said I looked bad in all my shirts

First they said...

First they told me I was too quiet
Then they told me to quiet down

First they told me to stop crying
Then they told me I shouldn't keep it in

First they told me school was awesome
Then they told me it was the pits

First they told me nothing was my fault
Then they listed everything I've done wrong

First I was called the immature one, now I know I was the mature one.
First they called me weird, and now they call me basic.
First they loved me, now they don't.
At first I loved them, now I don't.
First I was oblivious, now I'm out I see clearly.
At first I wasn't 'enough' for them, now they aren't 'enough' for me.

And with all these perceptions of me, I wonder will anyone but me ever know who...

First I was called the immature one, now I know I was the mature one.
First they called me weird, and now they call me basic.
First they loved me, now they don't.
At first I loved them, now I don't.
First I was oblivious, now I'm out I see clearly.
At first I wasn't 'enough' for them, now they aren't 'enough' for me.

And with all these perceptions of me, I wonder will anyone but me ever know who...

First they said I dressed as if asking for it
Then they said the sweatpants showed I was one to quit
First they said I should change it up, style my hair
Then they said define the normal, go to Nike for stuff to wear
First they said to be more lean, add fudge to the sundae
Then they said replace fries with salad, I’d get there someday
First they said you’re guarded, go to a party and kiss a...

First they said "we want you to fly."
Then they said "let us throw you to the ground."

First they said "everyone has an opportunity."
Then they said "except for you, you, and you."

First they said "speak up."
Then they said to quiet down.

First they told us the world would let us in.
Then they said implicitly that hate will always win.

First they said "try hard and you'll achieve."
Then they shot down all of our beliefs.
...

i told them they were wrong but they     assumed i made assumptions
there was right and there was left but they led me     wrong     at the junction
i asked them whether always growling ever     hurt their throats
why they sacrifice their cruise ships and save their sinking boats

they said they never growled but     no good words     escaped their mouths
their sinking boats were cruise ships because     wastage wasn't allowed

their hearts need some mending, but...

there were two sisters 

one was too skinny
the other too fat

one too prudish 
the other too promiscuous

one too loud
the other too quiet

one too smart
the other too dumb

one tried too hard
the other not hard enough

they tried to adapt
to lose weight
gain weight
wear less revealing clothes
wear more revealing clothes
be quieter
louder
smarter
dumber 

they tried to try harder
while trying to try less

they tried
and tried
and tried ...